Sakura Fujin's Desk

dapat nasa multiply ka rin

2009-04-13T19:28:00.001+08:00

GOGOGOGOGOGO

dapat hsa

2009-04-13T19:27:00.001+08:00

helo

2009-04-13T18:04:00.001+08:00

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Everything

2009-02-04T21:44:00.001+08:00

Everything
by: Michael Buble

*I fell in love with the song! sana some hot guy sings this to me XD*

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

013109

2009-01-31T09:02:00.000+08:00

Snippets of thoughts:

**> Napaka-unproductive ko kahapon!! >.< as in wala akong ginawa after psych class. and i dunno why it annoys me so..

**> 3 days na kitang napapaniginipan, 3 days takteng hilaw!! what does this mean? Bakit lagi na lang ganun? My unconscious mind wants you, my conscious self doesn't. It doesn't help with a relative of yours pestering phone calls here either. Nakakaasar na talaga. Nakapag-move on na ko, or so my conscious mind would say. Nakakairita ka talaga! >.<

012309

2009-01-23T22:38:00.001+08:00

Snippets of thoughts:

**> i never meant to hurt you. i let you go to spare you the pain of being with me... i wish we could be together but i knew your better off with someone else..

**> emo mode

012009

2009-01-20T21:35:00.002+08:00

Snippets of thoughts:

**>> I SO WANT TO WATCH THE ERASERHEADS REUNION CONCERT: THE FINAL SET on March 7, 2009!!!!!!!!!!!!! wooooooooooooooooooooooooo

link here: Eraserheads concert!!! XD

011709

2009-01-17T21:46:00.002+08:00

Snippets of thoughts:

**> coffee really makes you feel/do crazy stuff...

**> i want a maltese/shih tzu pup and name it johnny depp! LOL

**> i had this super secret thing about receiving a pup from a guy.. guess if you can. XD ahihihi

011309

2009-01-13T16:15:00.002+08:00

Snippets of thoughts:

(the first 3 are supposed to be posted last night. apparently, internet's down last night so i was only able to post it here now.

**> Why do we always find the things we lost to the fire?

**> I wish there's a thing called second chance..

**> I never knew I would be like this after the storm..

(this part, well, just some spur of the moment thingy..)

**> Court me with an Eraserheads Reunion Concert Part 2 tickets and i just might say yes. (hahahahaahahahahahaha)

011209 Part 2

2009-01-12T12:47:00.003+08:00

Snippet of my current mood:

**> Scratch that previous post. i don't miss him at all. i have found the one thing that constantly reminds me of the reason why i stayed single in the first place. :D

011209

2009-01-12T11:53:00.001+08:00

Snippet of my mood right now:

**> i miss him.. sheeeetttt noooooooo..

011109

2009-01-11T22:54:00.002+08:00

Snippets of thoughts:

**>"The Dark Knight" rockzz! No matter how many times I watch it over and over again, the movie never fails to amaze me. It was that outstanding! The Joker rulezz! I hope Heath Ledger wins at the Golden Globes and Oscars. He deserves a standing ovation for his performance. Gambatte!

**>I did absolutely nothing productive today. Bessie said it was a lazy day and I just realized that it was. I just polished my lab exercise in interactive graphics class and submitted to the prof via email in the afternoon. Later, I went to start my review on my Math lessons since we're having the exam by friday and I still have to crawl my way through the book. Wish me luck!

**> So, I woke up this morning with my head buzzing. I just had the strangest dream. Of all the people I could ever dream of, that one person just had to invade my dream not once, but twice! Maybe this is the person's way of getting back at me, for being really rude and selfish. Or maybe this is the unconscious me saying I wish I could take back everything I said. I still don't know if I regretted what happened. Sometimes when I had spare time to let random thoughts enter my screwed mind, this is one of the first to arrive. But unlike in the past wherein my thoughts tend to go deeper within the situation, this time around, they just gradually float away. Maybe because I'm starting to worry about other stuff right now and they weigh a bigger weight on me. I hope to sleep tight tonight.

**> I worry a lot these days. I worry that I worry a lot. I just wanna get through the next 2 weeks. Then, I hope that I can finally enjoy celebrating Chinese New Year with a BANG! :D

010909

2009-01-09T22:47:00.002+08:00

Snippets of thoughts for the day:

***> People from near and far celebrated the Feast of the Black Nazarene in Quiapo today. Since it's a Friday, the celebration crowd was bigger than before. I went to commute to my 8:30am class and people wearing maroon shirts and walking barefoot were all over Plaza Sta. Cruz. Toss in blue-uniformed policemen, yellow uniformed event organizers, red uniformed firefighters and white uniformed emergency staff and it's a colorful sea of people. I was dead afraid of getting stuck in traffic but it was a relief that I didn't. I just had to ride the LRT1 back home since traffic was not moving around lunchtime. I miss the good old days my cousins and brothers had when our grandparents' panciteria was still open in Quiapo. The little foodhouse had a really nice balcony view of the main entrance of Quiapo church. Every Quiapo fiesta, my grandparents would serve really tasty pancit and barbeque for us all. We would goof around the office until one of the workers would call our attention and they were get busy closing up the store, an indication that the Black Nazarene is heading out on the streets. It was fun waving white towels and hankies in the air with the sea of people under us when the Black Nazarene went out. It was a very good memory of Quiapo that I'm glad I had. Happy Quiapo Fiesta!

***> So, before I went home after my first class today, I decided to check out the goodies Kamiseta had for half its original price. I had picked out several neat-looking shirts but since I only limited myself on a 600 bucks budget, I told myself that I have to get 2 stuff out of it. Sadly, I really wanted the striped semi-formal shirt I fitted on but it was way out of my league. I sheepishly retreated from the store since I basically cannot afford it right at that moment. (I even started counting spare bills and coins my wallet can offer and even asked the saleslady until when they would be on sale) I really learned control today, like I had a choice. Lolz

***>My friends in UP, RJ and Pao, came up with a really ridiculous bet yesterday. That whoever among the 6 of us is the first to get married after college will have to pay for everyone's plane fare for a HongKong trip. I really don't know if they were serious about keeping it together for the next 10-20 years. I mean anyone of us could basically disappear right after college. Who knows right? It was a silly bet made on a really long dragging day. We all just had our bet on the first person to get hitched among us. *snicker* FYI, I don't think I'll be the first as you guys insist upon. (Si Wana mauuna! :D)

***> I started watching the sitcom "How I Met Your Mother" a few months ago and it totally rocks! I just finished watching "The Naked Man" episode a while ago and it was so hilarious! I liked the 'coppertone baby commercial pose' the best! High five! :D

***> My favorite cousin Di gave me a Starbucks planner for free! I was so excited about it since I have always dreamed of getting one without spending on it. I don't know how she got many of them at home to spare me one. It's so pretty...

***> Long vacation's over. We met our new year with a Bang! We gonna be pretty loaded for the next couple of weeks. Our profs have already gifted us the best of exams so I guess I would be burning the night away once again. Hopefully I can make it through it all. Battle tiem!

Til the next post!~

010609

2009-01-06T21:55:00.000+08:00

it's been a while since i last updated this blog of mine. when i was not buried beneath the piles of school work and projects last semester, was plain lazy to do anything productive. 2008 came and went like the speed of light. it was hard not to blink because just when you did, another day of activities is beginning to unfold. everything is like a whirlwind of events. it's getting hard to see the stuff happening around you. i don't make plans too far ahead of time because i know i will probably not be able to keep them anyway. my life is always basically going with the flow. i base if not all my decisions with the current, taking me to where i am now. so if you are going to ask me what i plan to do in the future, i won't have a say to it. i love planning stuff but i only plan for my short term goals. that would probably include the obvious ones: passing my exams, passing this hectic semester, getting a good thesis topic and enjoying life in between work. hopefully, everything will work out well.

to be honest, i have been terrified of entering this phase in college wherein the dreaded thesis has to be taken care of. my very long christmas break had been spent like this: 50% frantic holiday activities, 50% frantic worry of school. the one major reason behind the fright might be because thesis at the state university is done individually, with the exception of really rare special cases. for centain, i know that i'm a team member. i work with teams all my CS days. throwing me into CS thesis jungle alone, i cannot imagine the circumstances. i am taking up the seasonal pre-thesis seminar this semester already so we, the irregulars, are given a chance to graduate October of this year. i just hope i graduate by that time. only time can tell what the outcome of all these would be.

i marked January 26 twice. once because we're gonna celebrate Chinese New Year on that day. twice because it's my parents 23rd wedding anniversary. double celebration, yay!

im getting kinda drowsy now. il blog more later.

time check: 9:53pm

Wishlist and Resolutions

2009-01-05T22:06:00.003+08:00

..dahil late nako nakapagpost ng wishlist na sana'y nung pasko pa, eto na lang post ko, wishlist ko for the whole year of 2009 :D

Wish ko lang for 2009

1. Out of town with family
2. Barkada outing
3. Pass 2nd sem with flying colors
4. Get a decent company for summer OJT
5. Drive a car
6. Graduate on October
7. New pairs of jeans
8. Black heels from Trunk Show store
9. A pet
10. Im not sure about Mr. Right though.. lolz

Resolutions na rin! haha nag-ooverlap naman kasi un 2 lists eh :D

Resolutions for 2009
1. Earn money
2. Get a decent thesis topic
3. Start storyboard with Bessie
4. Do website for uncle's company
5. Stop procrastinating
6. Drive a car
7. Attend more IT-related seminars
8. Learn more IT stuff
9. Graduate on October!
10. Pray/ Attend mass often than not

After 7 long months...

2008-08-04T14:43:00.002+08:00

nako, tila nakalimutan na etong blog ko... so sorry... biglang sinapian nanaman ako ng katamaran.. anyways, after 7 long months of idleness, am back. syempre maraming nangyari sa akin in those months, may good, may bad. mga highlights nlng ipopost ko.

>> EMO Rentals was born through our CS120: Internet Programming class last sem. It was both a fun and stressful experience. Sadly, wala kami ni pao masyadong natutunan sa coding part nang dahil kay mel...

>> LGBI Gene Sequencer was born naman through our CS127: Database Systems class last sem din. Mas stressful toh dahil napakademanding ng prof namin pero ok lang. Once again, konti lang natutunan ko sa coding part since laging layout designs ang napupuntang task sa akin. Mas malaking bonding namin dito since mas malaking group kami: LGBI is composed of Lunasin mel, Go me (LOL), Buendia rj, Ignacio marvin. Nakapag-overnight rin sila dito alang-alang sa project. Memorable yun. hehe

>>At long last at nakapagbakasyon rin ako nung summer. No summer classes, no worries, no stress, wala lahat. Nagwork lang naman ako sa store namin almost everyday. Minsan sinasamahan ko si mami maghakot ng mga stocks sa kung saan saan. Ok lang nmn ako dun since it's to gain some business experience rin naman. Kung hindi naman pagbabantay ang inatupag, naglalaro lang nman ng PS2 games, watching DVDs, TV series (Grey's Anatomy at Heroes yea!) and other misc. A rest that I deserve :D

>> The most unfortunate incident that had occurred was when my grandpa left us by mid-May. All hell broke loose tlga yun 2 weeks na yon. Sobrang pagod kaming lahat from all the rituals na dapat gawin. Tapos away dyan away don pa mga uncles, my mom, other relatives and my grandma, most especially my grandma, who usually initiated the fight due to some family conflict and the simple details along the funeral rites. Kami mga apo tahimik lng in the background, happily folding paper money for our grandpa. Basta kami mahal namin sha, ewan ko na sa iba. We miss him terribly but I'm sure he's happy where he is right now, better off than here anyway.

>> Went with mom's family in China for just a couple of days(3 days). Went there to visit my grandpa's old home, to see his old friends and other relatives, to pay our respects to my great-grandparents. We were accompanied by my grandpa's younger brother who lived there. Nothing much happened as we basically flew by.

>> School opening nanaman. Heto nanaman kami nila RJ, Wana, Pao, Mel. Pero grabe, seniors na turing sa amin. At hindi pa kami nagthethesis (except for Mel). Ako, tanggap ko na na magfifive years ako eh. Pero ewan ko lng kung matutuloy pa yun kung sila RJ gustong mag 4 and a half years. Bahala na.

Kelangan ko nang mag-aral!!!! May exam pako tom! Until then, baiii

Qing Hua Ci

2008-01-14T15:37:00.000+08:00

青花瓷 Qing Hua Ci
作词：方文山 Lyrics by: Vincent Fang
作曲：周杰伦 Composed by Jay Chou

素胚勾勒出青花笔锋浓转淡　
su bei gou le chu qing hua bi feng nong zhuan dan
瓶身描绘的牡丹一如你初妆
ping shen miao hui de mu dan yi ru ni chu zhuang
冉冉檀香透过窗心事我了然
ran ran tan xiang tou guo chuang xin shi wo liao ran　
宣纸上走笔至此搁一半
xuan zhi shang zou bi zhi ci ge yi ban

釉色渲染仕女图韵味被私藏　
you se xuan ran shi nu tu yun wei bei si cang
而你嫣然的一笑如含苞待放
er ni yan ran de yi xiao ru han bao dai fang
你的美一缕飘散　
ni de mei yi lu piao san
去到我去不了的地方
qu dao wo qu bu liao de di fang

＃天青色等烟雨　而我在等你　
　tian qing se deng yan yu er wo zai deng ni
　炊烟袅袅升起　隔江千万里
　cui yan miao miao sheng qi ge jiang qian wan li
　在瓶底书汉隶仿前朝的飘逸　
　zai ping di shu han li fang qian chao de piao yi
　就当我为遇见你伏笔
　jiu dang wo wei yu jian ni fu bi

＊天青色等烟雨　而我在等你
　tian qing se deng yan yu er wo zai deng ni
　月色被打捞起　晕开了结局
　yue se bei da lao qi yun kai le jie ju
　如传世的青花瓷自顾自美丽　
　ru chuan shi de qing hua ci zi gu zi mei li
　你眼带笑意
　ni yan dai xiao yi

色白花青的锦鲤跃然于碗底
se bai hua qing de jing li yue ran yu wan di　
临摹宋体落款时却惦记着你
ling mo song ti luo kuan shi que dian ji zhe ni
你隐藏在窑烧里千年的秘密　
ni ying cang zai yao shao li qian nian de mi mi
极细腻犹如绣花针落地
ji xi ni you ru xiu hua zhen luo di

帘外芭蕉惹骤雨门环惹铜绿　
lian wai ba jiao re zhou yu men huan re tong lv
而我路过那江南小镇惹了你
er wo lu guo na jiang nan xiao zhen re le ni
在泼墨山水画里　
zai po mo shan shui hua li
你从墨色深处被隐去
ni chong mo se shen chu bei ying qu

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OMG.. this song recently got stuck in my head... jay chou.. XD

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music vid here..

Happy sappy Holidays!

2007-12-31T11:55:00.000+08:00

woohh... in a few hours, it's gonna be year 2008 already... so fast... i hate growing up again.. but i guess i don't have any choice.. always a part of life.. sigh.. it's been a while since i've last updated my blog too. stupid pldt mydsl.. there was a time when the connection would only choose which sites it wanted to open.. lasted for a few days too.. sucky but oh wells, at least it's up and running smoothly again..

my christmas vacation! hmm... 70% of it was spent i guess to bumming and looking after the store.. it's both fun and wasteful coz i know that i still have lots of homework to get over with and i don't have much time anymore.. shucks.. but still, won't let it spoil my remaining vacation days. just have to get the rest done before i spend new year's eve and new year's first day with my family and relatives.

first stop, i spent the start of my christmas vacation with my UPM friends. had a simple salo-salo here at my hauz over yellow cab pizza, tsing tao beer (introduced to them chinese beer for the first time :D) and tekken. it was fun. at least we were able to forget all our worries about school when we're together for once.

(ayiiiii!! am currently listening to Jay Chou's newest song, Qing Hua Ci, and it's so nice!! XD)

secondly, spent dec. 29, saturday night live with my barkada for a simple get together at RP. only 6 of us were available that night (clar, tea, kat, os, leo and me) but as os said, 6/10's not bad.. had dinner at Recipe. (gising gising! hehehehe) nice food shared over reminiscences. bonding time was further spent at coffee beanery shop. we talked about almost everything in the past (zsa-christy! wahehehe)and some more about the current happenings in our lives. we just need to remember to bring the chimes the next time we'll have a get together. ^^ i had fun that night, the best night i had with my barkada in a year i think. i was able to laugh my heart out as naturally as i could and was able to be myself that night. makes me want to hug them all tight. :D wish we could hold another one (get together) soon! then summer outing looks promising too! :D see you all soon! :D

lastly, for the first time in the history of our family, mom shouted out that we could each pick a stuff that we wanted to buy at SM North Edsa as her christmas gift to us last night. it was surprising coz she'd never done that before, being the thrifty person that she is. (except when it comes to clothes lol) so we first got dad to pick his favorite Levi's jeans at the Levi's store, then went to folded and hung for a dress ive wanted to buy clar. (told mum that i already got my share when i got myself a shishiedo lols) it was ok with her about me picking my gift for clar. then we had a simple dinner over at KFC. then we went to toy kingdom and got jeff his own monopoly deluxe edition set. we lastly accompanied george to pick his vans footwear which because of the limited time, didn't got in the end. (george's so picky kasi eh! lols) when we got home last night, me and my bros went gaga over playing monopoly, with the crunchy bills on our hands and the crispy-looking deeds on our sides. played up until 3am, we did! in the end, george won the game, turning the whole game mode in his favor during the last part. we were laughing like crazy the whole time. i guess i really liked how we siblings bonded last night. that had never happened in a while too. when we will be able to do so again, only time would tell.

and now, the only things i could look forward to was spending the new year's eve and the new year 's day with my relatives both father's and mother's side. should be a helluva fun too. can't wait! :D

and so my entry ends here! Happy sappy Holidays and Happy new Year to all!:D

Bum

2007-11-02T12:57:00.000+08:00

beach bum ako ngyon... haha wish ko lng nasa beach ako ngyon.. pero hay, stuck sa bahay lng, gwin ang anumang pwd gawin. gusto kong lumakwatsa hanggang sawa pero la naman akong kasama (wow! it rhymes! yan na ba ang epekto ng pagiging bum? LOL) anyways, what have i been up to the last few days since i got my sembreak? hmmm.... i went todo lakwatsa with my aunt sa MOA, quiapo, MOA at MOA (haha) and had a simple dinner with her as a farewell. (she's my favorite aunt. i owe lots of things from her) then i went to worrying mode about my grades for the nakaraang sem. (Whew what a relief! i passed in flying colors! waaaa) Then i cleaned out my room for 2 days straight and i'm so proud of it! it was soooo clean! and i get to throw out stuff i didn't need, stuff that has to go a long time back but dhil sayang na itapon so ipon ipon hanggang sa nagpile up siya ng dust. i didn't even handed them over to dad, whom i've known as a person who collects old stuff even when he promises to throw them out. i should know coz i still see a lot of my old stuff hanging around the house when i threw them out of my room years back. so off to the waste basket, clutter! the one thing i still haven't clean, physically and internally, is my desktop PC. i guess i'm waiting for christmas to come (which is not that far away anymore) to give it a fresh new look. my novels! okaaayy... so i have approximately a dozen novels to read and apparently i also had 2 RPG games to get addicted to, so, so far i only got one novel down. and i tell you it's really really nice. i really really appreciated it. for my fil-chi friends, i recommend the book 'Banyaga' by Charlson Ong, printed locally and written by an alumni of Xavier. (bessie, don't worry. am getting you a copy of it for christmas. waaa no more surprises...waaa) so there. lastly my dvds! hmm i think i've done 6 movies the past few days, 6 of which i truly loved so yeah i'm enjoying it and will still continue to do so since i still got a couple more. so there. my sembreak in a nutshell. till the next entry! ^__^

ps. i really should go add into my to-do list this one: reading my comsai friends' blogs. coz they've been with mine. He he he :D

Waaaroooaaaaarrr

2007-10-22T07:07:00.000+08:00

Waaarrroooaaarrrr...

dalawang CRUCIAL finals nlng.... Shucks, naprepressurized nnman ako ngyon.. I can't fail either one of them.. my CS life's at stake... Shucks tlga, gusto ko nang magsembreak... pero mas masayang magsembreak kapag wla nang inaalalang kahit anu anu... konting tiis nlng... kaya ko toh... kaya natin toh mai CS friends!

hmm... unang gagawin ko after ng finals, ililigpit ko mga kalat sa desk ko. mga scratch papers, notes, books, eraser and pencil marks, lahat ng mga reminders nang pinagdaanan ko nung finals week (wolverine style ang nangyari hahaa). tapus sasamahan ko aunt ko from US mamasya since hanggang this week nlng siya andito sa pinas. then kukuha nako ng lisensya kahit na d pa ako ganun kasanay magmaneho ng kotse. tpus babasahin ko na lhat ng mga binili kong novels. within reach nga lng sila lahat, kaso d ko kayang hawakan at ma-tempt dahil may finals pa. T.T marami pa akong gustong gawin like getting bummed hehehe

hay buhay.... gud luck nlng po sa ating lahat T.T

Surbei 101

2007-10-07T09:17:00.000+08:00

1 . TALKED TO A BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
~ yeah..

2. LEARNED ANYTHING NEW?
~ lotsa stuff

3. TALKED TO AN EX?
~ as if nagka-howe nako..

4. MISS SOMEONE?
~ miss kadainc na!

5. LAID IN YOUR BED?
~ i sleep, duh..

6 . MADE YOU CRY?
~ when i am overwhelmed with depression..

7. YOU WENT TO THE MOVIES WITH?
~ friends

8. MALL WITH?
~ family or friends or usually mag-isa (Rob during breaks :D)

9. WHO MADE YOU LAUGH?
~ sila pao, mga kasama ko sa upm :D

10. SAID THEY LOVE YOU?
~ sila bessie at clar :)

* general stuffs*

11. FAVORITE LOCATION?
~ my room minus all computer books on the shelves :0

12. WHAT ARE YOU MOST SCARED OF?
~ having no friends.. :(

13. WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
~ dat.. i dunno.. haha

14. DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
~ huh... dati..

15. DO YOU LIKE BEING AROUND PEOPLE?
~ umm not really.. but i like being with people whom i know for quite sometime

16. HAVE YOU CRIED RECENTLY?
~ no time to even cry amidst all the work i have to do right now..

17. ARE YOU LONELY RIGHT NOW?
~ medyo...

18. SONG STUCK IN YOUR HEAD?
~ icebox by usher

20. EVER LIKED SOMEONE WHO TREATED YOU
LIKE CRAP?
~ i think i had.. long time ago.. haha

21. WHAT COLOR SHIRT DO YOU HAVE RIGHT
NOW?
~ blue

22. NAME THREE THINGS THAT YOU ARE
DOING?
~ typing, listening to icebox, worrying about my exams and mps...

23. HOW MUCH CASH DO YOU HAVE ON YOU
RIGHT NOW?
~ i'm kinda broke right now, only had 70 bucks left in my wallet haha

24. ARE YOU BORED?
~ duh..

25. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE SHOW?
~ kahit anong meron sa tv...

2 6. WHO GOT YOU TO JOIN FRIENDSTER?
~ i forgot.. that was a long time ago.. (halata bang galing sa friendster etong surbei? :D)

27. WISH SOMEONE WAS NEXT TO YOU IN
THE MORNING WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
~ umm.. i had fantasize about it.. yeah :)

28. WHAT WEB SITE DO YOU VISIT THE
MOST?
~ mail.yahoo/google... too many work to anticipate in the mailboxes...

29 . DO YOU HAVE PLANTS IN YOUR ROOM?
~ wala

30. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON TO HUG YOU?
~ si clar at si bessie ata..

*21 secrets*

1.WH AT IS YOUR SHOUTOUT ABOUT?
~ empees....

2. WHERE WAS YOUR DEFAULT PICTURE
TAKEN?
~ random shot over at my grandparent's house

3. WHAT IS YOUR MUSIC/VIDEOS ABOUT?
~ wla eh..

4. HONESTLY, IF SOMEONE WERE TO TELL
YOU HOW THEY FELT, WOULD YOU LISTEN?
~ i would.. try... but i usually freak out.. haha

5. WHATS YOUR CURRENT MOOD?
~ busy being lazy and being a worry freak

6. WHATS YOUR MOST VALUED POSSESSION
(OBJEC T)?
~ my blue hair doctor comb! i can't find my 7 year + old precious comb! it hold a certain sentimental value already to me.. sniff...

8. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, AND
CHANGE SOMETHING WOULD YOU?
~ yeah.. i would..

9. IF YOU MUST BE ANYTHING FOR ONE
DAY, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
~ i wanna fly around the world :D

10 . EVER HAD A NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE?
~ wla.. never wishing to have..

11. WHATS THE NAME OF THE SONG THATS
STUCK IN YOUR HEAD?
~ icebox

12. WHO DID YOU COPY AND PASTE THIS
FROM?
~ kay she..:D

13. HAVE YOU EVER SANG IN FRONT OF A
LARGE AUDIENCE?
~ small audience lang.. nung geo11 class... haha kakahiya

1 4. WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE
ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
~ face

16. DO YOU STILL WATCH KIDDY MOVIES OR
TV SHOW?
~ oo naman...

19. DO YOU SPEAK ANY OTHER LANGUAGE?
~ yup

20. IS THERE SOMEONE ON YOUR MIND NOW?
~ yeah

21. WHAT HURTS YOU RIGHT NOW?
~ my work.. :(

Recurring thoughts

2007-09-30T22:29:00.000+08:00

OMG. i can't stop thinking about someone whom i had an awkward situation with 5 months ago. it's so stupid. i'm being ridiculously stupid. OMG. i can't afford any disturbing thoughts right now, what with all those machine problems i have to accomplish before the sem ends. i'm hating myself for whatever happened back then. i've just realized that the memory's haunting me because i've been unreasonable, i've been totally unfair to the person. i've been too judgmental and i've exploited the person's kindness towards me. the person doesn't really deserve all that. sigh. what could have happened if i hadn't said all those things and returned the favor to the person? i'm really confused by the mere fact that i'm having all these thoughts.. damn...

Overwhelmed

2007-09-19T19:46:00.000+08:00

My gawd... Umpisa na ang pakikipagsapalaran ko sa mga MP's. Sunod sunod ang pagbigay ng mga MP sa amin this week. Buhay pa kaya ako pagkatapus nito? Overdue na nga etong isa eh. Wala pa nararating. Inggit ako sbra sa isa kong kasama. Tapus na siya. Asar tlga kanina. Nsa dulo na ng utak ko un mga sagot sa stat130. Eh ang problema eh naalala ko ung tanong. galing siya sa math101 na module ko dati. Lumabas kanina sa exam. Hindi ko maalala ung sagot. Kakaasar tlga. Maraming beses na yang nangyari sa akin. Hay nako. Another round bukas. Kakayanin ko toh.

Buhay. Naextend ang sem na eto. Dapat Oct.7 ang last day of classes. Ginawang Oct.12 pambawi sa mga nakaraang klase na nacancel dahil sa bagyo. Hindi ko alam kung matutuwa ako o hindi eh. Matagal tagal ko naring inaasam asam ang paglaya ko sa mga gawain sa iskul. Pero dahil sa mga pinagtatambak ng mga prof sa amin na projects at exams, parang kulang pa ang inextend nilang oras para matapus nmin ang lahat na kelangang tapusin. Ayoko naring patagalin ang pagdurusa na ito. Gusto ko nang magbakasyon.

Sna nga lang makapagbakasyon pa ako. Sna tlga at pumasa ako dis sem.

Good luck nalng sa aming lahat... T.T

The Last Stand

2007-09-05T08:07:00.000+08:00

Oh. wow. My head's still buzzing. My heart's still racing. I've just finished reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows last night. I've been devouring the book ever since I got it last Wednesday. And it was great! A grand finale it is! It was like a quick summary of the first 6 books of the series plus answers to all the cliff hanging questions left to us by the author through the Harry Potter books. Some may say that the 7th book was 'minadali' but I wouldn't think of it as such. As JK Rowling had said, she had already planned the ending of Harry Potter even before as she was just starting to write the first book. The only downside of the final book was its epilogue. It was terribly disappointing to read that part. I wished Rowling had left that part out and ended it with the last chapter as it is. But I guessed she included it in to satisfy the younger readers' wishes, to know exactly what would become of the main characters of the book years after the last stand. The whole time I was reading it (yeah even during classes where I found out that the PC I was using had a electronic copy of the book on it) my head and my heart were racing with the events happening in the book. I did not cry though on such occasions where some of the major characters died protecting the good from the bad. I preferred to stick with the action, suspense and thrilling parts. I am already expecting that the movie counterpart of this book would have to be done beautifully and perfectly, heck, the action scenes started to swim across my head again! It would surely be memorable for all Harry Potter fans like me.

Oh. Sh*t. I still have a lot of things to do! 'Pahamak' as it is, I'm still glad I gave time reading the book though. No regrets. He he.

A little spoiler here: I was right and terribly happy: My 2 favorite characters ended up together. Hi hi.^^

Overwhelmed

2007-08-29T00:33:00.000+08:00

Pota.

Limang araw ku na ginagawa ung DBRecords na yan. Asar tlga at hindi ko parin maisip kung papaanu siyang gawin ng maayos. After every hour of coding or staring at my useless code, I always have this impulse to bang my head on the wall, or on the monitor. Buti I'm still sane enough not to. Isang araw pa na ma-drag etong long overdue na program na toh and I might just do my head-banging stint. It's almost 1am now. I'm still wide awake. But my depleted brain can't take it anymore. So help me God.

My chest hurts..

I think I'm coming down with something..

nakakapagpabagabag...nakakaEWAN!

2007-07-29T19:37:00.000+08:00

hayan.. after 10 years tsaka ko ulit nabuhay etong blog ko... panu kasi...

hay hindi ko na nga iintindihin yun.. tska hindi ko narin aalahanin na kelangan special ung 100th post ko since binura ku na ung iba (beh-lat joana ^^ haha) ililimitado ko narin mga pinopost ko dito kasi biglang nagsulputan mga stalkers ko eh.. tuloy bulgar na bulgar na buhay ko (^___________^)

so ano nang meron sa aking buhay? heto nanaman ako, nagmumukmok sa sobrang depression/frustration sa aking naging buhay sa skul. ang hirap hirap kasi grabe! hindi ko na alam ano pang pwedeng gawin eh. at sa dami rami kong pinagdaanan mula nung huli akong nakapagupdate dito hanggang ngayon, halos wala naman nagbago sa aking attitude. ganun parin. bitter about almost everything. wanting to give up. ang nagbago lng ay mas naging close ako sa aming 'sorority' kuno sa skul, ang mga kasama ko sa 'orgless org', ang 'the irregs'. may mascot pa kami, o db? (galing to ki joana! wag magagalit ang isa dyan!:P) kung dati, madalas akong umuuwi nang dahil nabobore lng din nmn ako sa skul, kasi wla naman rin akong kasama sa mga break, ngyon medyo hindi na. oo aaminin kong mahilig parin akong umuwi sa amin, pero ngyon sumasama narin sila hahahha^^ masayahin sila. sa hirap at /*(ginhawa)*/ hirap, masayahin parin sila. source of strength ko nga sila eh (naks! touch sila hehe) kasi maraming beses ko narin gustong sumuko pero tuwing nakikita ko sila, nwawala na kung anuman ang iniisip ko. hayun lang. tama na sa bola.^^

sana naman matapus na ang lahat na toh.... gusto ko nang magsem break... namimiss ko narin ang kadainc... aapat nga lang kami naggettogether kagabi eh.. nalate pa ako.. how sad... next week raw ulit.. ewan ko lng kung matutuloy o hindi...

nakakapagpabagabag (hindi ko parin mapronounce eto!!! >.<)ang mga gawain ko ngyon... pero para namang may choice pa ako db?

cge hanggang dito nlng muna. kelangan ko pang mag-aral... T.T

Dead tired....

2007-03-27T00:23:00.000+08:00

gawd, am so groggy and tired.... ilang araw narin akong nageexam, gumagawa ng MP, nagtataranta sa mga bagay bagay.... so haggardness na tlga.... hanggang holy week pa pagdurusa ko....... wahuhuhuhuhu

napadaan lng.... just to update on my blog

finals ko will last til april 3

good luck nlng sa akin

tpus a week after holy week, pasok nanaman summer classes....... wahuhuhuhu

i don't have something to look forward to na......... so sad.........

mga DVDs ko nlng sa avenida....

Rules are rules

2007-03-12T22:48:00.000+08:00

RULES:
1.) You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
2.) You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks! (So people reading this, if you want an explanation...msg that person)

GAME:
Danced on a table in a bar?
> innocent

Ever told a lie?
> guilty

Had feelings for someone whom you can't have back?
> guilty

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
> guilty

Kissed a picture?
> innocent

Slept in until 5 PM?
> innocent

Fallen asleep at work/school?
> guilty

Held a snake?
> innocent

Been suspended from school?
> innocent

Worked at a fast food restaurant?
> innocent

Stolen from a store?
> innocent

Been fired from a job?
> innocent

Done something you regret?
> guilty

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
> innocent

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
> innocent

Kissed in the rain?
> innocent

Sat on a roof top?
> innocent

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
> innocent

Shaved your head
> innocent

Slept naked?
> innocent

Had a gym membership?
> guilty

Made your boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
> innocent

Been in a band?
> innocent

Shot a gun?
> innocent

Donated Blood?
> innocent

Eaten alligator meat?
> innocent

Eaten cheesecake?
> guilty

Still love someone you shouldn't?
> guilty

Have a tattoo?
> innocent

Like someone, but will never tell who?
> guilty

Been too honest?
> guilty

Ruined a surprise?
> guilty

Eat in a restaurant and got really bloated that you cant walk afterwards?
> guilty

Erased someone in your friends list?
> guilty

Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy) man's clothes (if your a girl)?
> guilty

Joined in a search for Mr Pogi pageant (if your a guy) Ms Beautiful pageant(if your a girl)?
> innocent

Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
> guilty

Have sex with a total stranger?
> innocent

Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
> innocent

A total stranger treat you by paying your jeepney fare?
> innocent

Get totally angry that you cry so hard?
> guilty

ps. la na ata tlga akong magawa.... hell weeks na... noooooo....

iPod shuffle

2007-03-10T01:10:00.000+08:00

>>>Survey galing sa Friendster<<<

1.) Put your music player on shuffle
2.) Press forward for each question.
3.) Use the song title as the answer
to the question.
4.) NO CHEATING!!!

1.) How am I feeling today?
>>Desperado by the Eagles (desperado sa grade sa exam bkas!! noooo)

2.) How will I feel getting married?
>>What I've been looking for by Ryan and Sharpay Evans (HSM) (naman...haha)

3.) What is my best friend's theme song?
>>Route66 (???)

4.) Highschool is?
>>colors of the wind by vanessa williams (ano raw?)

5.) I am...
>>starlight by muse

6.) How is today?
>>Tui Hou by Jay Chou (resigned..)

7.) What is in store for this week?
>>Love song for no one by John Mayer

8.) What song best describes my parents?
>>I miss you by Darren Hayes (huh?)

9.) How is my life going?
>>What I've been looking for by Troy Bolton and Gabriella Montez (nanaman??)

10.) What song will they play at my funeral?
>>Power of two by Indigo Girls

11.) Is this going to be a good year?
>>Talk of the town by Jack Johnson

12.) What's your love life like?
>>You and me by Lifehouse

13.) What's your favorite?
>>The painter by O-town (favorite ano? song? definitely not this haha sawa na)

14.) Best bored activity?
>>Don't forget to remember me by Carrie Underwood

15.) Favorite quote?
>>Ai Wo bie zhou by Jay Chou

16.) Song played in your wedding?
>>Kiss me by Sixpence none the richer (bwahahahaha tugma!^^)

17.) What is your boyfriend/girlfriend's theme song?
>>Beauty and the beast by Celine Dion(bwahahahaha ako si beauty, howe ku if
ever si beast hahaha... jowk lng.. but nice song.. awwww^^)

18.) The song that best described your childhood days...
>>gitara by parokya ni edgar

19. The song that keeps playing in to your mind...
>>How to save a life by the Fray (actually ndi toh un eh...hehe)

20. The song that will make me happy.
>>Tian Mi Mi by Teresa Teng (bwahahahah!!!! bat lagi naglalanding si Tian Mi Mi sa magandang tanong??? hahahaha^_____________^)

>>>>>>>>>>END<<<<<<<<<<

Way back into love

2007-03-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

Addik!!! hahahahha just watched 'Music and Lyrics' with clar and tea a while ago and it was suupper nice! hahaha addik na nga kmi ni clar sa mga songs eh. Though i must admit na ung plot nya ay predictable... pero kahit na... iba kasi ung chemistry ni hugh grant and drew barrymore... they look so good together... and the HIPS! hahahahaha hugh grant's so sexy!!! tea and i agree together hahahahha oh well... hyper nanaman ako... nyways, heto ung lyrics ng isa sa mga magagandang songs na nacompose sa movie:

Way Back into Love
Music and Lyrics by: Alex Fletcher and Sophie Fisher
(Hugh Grant's and Drew Barrymore's characters)

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need 'em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Upcoming Movies update!

2007-03-01T18:23:00.000+08:00

I'll just update my last upcoming movie list since I've found some more interesting movies in the Yahoo! movie database which I'm sure we'll all get excited about. (Or so at least I will^^)Here it is!(Release dates in the US; will probably get to us a month or so after, depending on the movie's popularity demand...)

1. Spider-man 3 (May 4, 2007)
2. Shrek the Third (May 18, 2007)
3. Pirates of the Carribean: At the World's End (May 25, 2007) (XD!!!)
4. Ocean's Thirteen (June 8, 2007)
5. Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer (June 15, 2007)
6. Live Free or Die Hard (June 29, 2007) (sequel of Bruce Willis' Die Hard series)
7. Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix (July 13, 2007)
8. The Simpsons Movie (July 27, 2007)
9. Rush Hour 3 (August 10, 2007)
10. Resident Evil: Extinction (Sept. 21, 2007)
11. High School Musical 2 (no release date yet)

ps. must've got a lot of time doing this list... oh well.. can't help it if i'm a movie addict! XD

pps. Hapiberdei mai dear bro! ^__^

MiraCUL!

2007-02-28T08:22:00.000+08:00

Miracles of all miracles!

Grabe I passed my Physics 2nd exam! Waaaaaaahhhhhhh Grabe tlga kung ano ano pa pumapasok sa isip ko at babagsak ako. Really can't believe that I passed when I'm so sure I'd fail. Chamba of all chambers! hehehe :D biro mo, feel ko mas marami pa nga akong hula dun kaysa sa sure na sgot. hay buhay... yung calculus na lng. This friday cguro lalabas ung results. So help me God.

Me exam pa tom, cs55 logic. hafta study now...

ps. new skin. hopia like it (ahihihihi :D)

*>>>kathy blissfully happy<<<*

Depression, begone!

2007-02-25T18:08:00.000+08:00

Depression, begone!

I don't need you.

I don't want you in my life.

Go away! Go away! Go away!

grrrrr......I recently got really depressed again after I walked home from school last Saturday. I know that I studied and prepared for my physics exam at least for the week before sat. I scanned my calculus notes too at least 2 days before. And yet, it seemed like I hadn't got a clue in the examination. I just don't know what I was thinking. Namental block tlga ako while I was staring at my questionnaire. Kakainis! And thus, once again, my failures led me again to depression. Really hate it when I'm feeling miserable about myself. Really hate it when other people are challenging me that I can't do what is right for once. Really hate it when I'm incompetent and weak. Made me thinking that I'm exactly what they are saying about me. Losing my self-worth now, eh? Never again, never again will I let people tell me that I can't do this, I can't do that. I know that it will be a lot of hardwork for me to live up to it yet I think, no, I am up for that challenge. It takes time but I think I can handle it.

Mum saw me go through my miserable state last night and she sure knew how to cheer me up. Movies! Oh the pleasure in watching movies! They made all my worries go away! I love movies tlga! XD I got 3 really good titles last night for just a hundred bucks! Akalain mong bababa ng sobra ung mga pirated DVDs sa avenida na magiging 3 for 100 nlng siya?! I was extremely happy with my purchases as mum was as well. Together after dinner, we watched 'Blood Diamond'. Really awesome movie! Really really nice! Leonardo di Caprio had outdone himself again! Sana manalo siya sa Oscars. He really deserve to win. Then morning a while ago, I went to watch Will Smith's 'The Pursuit to Happyness' and it was soooo nice as well! Ibang Will Smith na ang pinakita ni Will Smith dun! He's gotten really good. Astig rin ung anak nya. What a breakthrough to stardom! Sna manalo din sa Oscars si Will Smith. hehehe yung isa pang movie ay 'Eragon'. Haven't watched it pa pero heard that the book's really good. Hopefully maganda din yung movie.

I suddenly found myself rating movies I've seen just now sa Yahoo! Movies. La langs. Pinakamababang bngyan ko ng rating ay si 'Borat'. Gave him a 'D' for dreadful. Hahahaha Ewan ku kung bakit antaas ng ratings nya. Napakaturn off naman sa akin siya. Hindi ku lng siguro type mga ganyang movies. Oh well. And the highest grade I gave, A+, goes to 'Blood Diamond'. Deserving naman tlga. And oh, btw, also saw 'Dreamgirls' on DVD last week. Gave it a A- for a job well done by Beyonce and Jennifer Hudson and the rest of the cast. Powerful movie indeed!

And of course, movies to see for the next quarters of the year: (with release dates in the US)
1. Spider-man 3 (May 4, 2007)
2. Ocean's Thirteen (June 8, 2007)
3. Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer (June 15, 2007)
4. Harry Potter and the Order of Phoenix (July 13, 2007)
5. Resident Evil: Extinction (Sept. 21, 2007)
6. High School Musical 2 (no release date yet)

and many more!

Hay buhay. Hafta go now. Aja!~

I'm a BIG failure... round two

2007-02-17T14:44:00.000+08:00

heto nanaman... sira nanaman araw ko... received my cs55 exam a while ago and i failed big time agen...

pero comparing sa una, medyo ok lng eto since alam k na mahirap tlga ang exam kc approximately 8 out of 40 students lng ang nakapasa (nasa median grade pa score ko)

pero kahit na noh, ang hirap nang bumawi sa susunod... kelangang todo effort na kung di derederecho na akong babagsak...

Chinese new year's up and coming tom... won't let all my failures lead me down now...

BUT once again, may my failures remind me to START WORKING MY BUTT OFF RIGHT NOW!!!

:(

I'm a BIG failure...

2007-02-16T07:03:00.000+08:00

Kakainis... I'm hating myself more... I'm a huge failure tlaga this time...

Bka naman kasi ndi ko pa naexperience bumagsak dati kaya ako nagkakaganito...

Pero ndi eh. Maraming beses na akong bumagsak, nung high school at ngayong college, pero etong time lng tlga ang nagpapagunaw ng aking mundo... sobrang bagsak kasi eh... tpus to think pa na halos buong class eh pumasa... made me feel even worse about myself...

I feel really bad about it... I hate my prof sa subj na yun, khit na wala naman siyang ginagawa(ndi naman siya terror, nagjojoke naman siya paminsan)... ewan ko ba... basta ayaw ko sa kanya...

I don't know what I'm supposed to feel right now either... Hindi ko alam kung iiyak b ako o magagalit o matutuwa o ano... I just feel heavy...

Pero kahit na nangyari ang nangyari, hindi ko siya hahayaang sirain ang araw ko... (biro mo sa sbrang frustration kagabi nakatapus ako ng isang chapter ng University Physics?!? haha ang mga nagagawa naman ng frustrations oo...) I still have the Chinese New Year to look forward to and more exams to work on for the remaining days ng sem...

May my failure remind me to stop procrastinating, avoid sneaky temptations and work myself to death...

Last Full Show

2007-01-28T10:34:00.000+08:00

Long time no post! hehehe been busy kasi eh... that is with playing Sims2 hahaha grabe except for cramming for my calculus and physics exams yesterday, the whole month of january naaddict lng ako sa kakalaro ng sims2. Pagkauwi ko for a 2 hour break, from dismissal, pati last week when we celebrated 'science week' kaya halos buong week walang pasok since ndi rin naman nagklaklase mga prof, laro parin ako ng laro ng sims. hay buhay.... at heto ako ngayon, nag-aalala sa magiging resulta ng exam ko sa calculus...pano b naman kc, yun na lng inaaral ko for 2 straight days, napabayaan ko na nga yun physics eh, tpus wala pa ako masyadong masagutan... kainis tlga...

but anyways... masaya pa din ako kasi nanuod kami ni mum and dad kagabi ng last full show, "night at the museum" starring ben stiller.. haha sobrang saya nya hehe worth it sa worth it ung tix...kahit si mum sbi nya corny sa una, nung pagkatapus ng movie, sbi na nya sobrang ganda haha

anyways... gusto ko nang magbakasyon khit na wala tlga akong bkasyon... i have to take summer classes na from now on... huhuhuhu oh well that's life... dami pa exams to go kaya di pa tapus ang pakikipagbaka sa skul... NO TO TUITION FEE INCREASE!! hahaha joke lng... yan nlng araw araw kong nakikita at naririnig sa skul eh hehehehe

anyways, hafta go now adios

sorry

2007-01-09T07:23:00.000+08:00

sorry...

kilala nyu na kung sino kayo...

Reality check

2007-01-03T22:02:00.000+08:00

going back to school bulol tom and i haven't done my homework...yet... hay grabe, heto nanaman ako... kelangan nang magbagong buhay... quit complaining and start working... i enjoyed my christmas break naman... especially with the family whom i missed so much... can't believe my beloved couz's graduating na... awww... hay... made me realize dat dis is reality... have to face it with all the strength i need.... lahat ng kacornihan nasabi ku na ata... ramblings lng naman eto... hay.... kathy, get a life....

2006-12-18T22:50:00.001+08:00

You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.
You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.
A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.
But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

hehe

2006-12-18T22:47:00.000+08:00

Your German Name is:

Ingrid Annemarie

What's Your German Name?

ingrid?!?! wahaha

2006-12-18T22:43:00.000+08:00

Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.
You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.
Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.
People crave your praise and complements.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

now dis is not entirely true huh...

2006-12-18T22:39:00.000+08:00

Your Life Path Number is 9

Your purpose in life is to make the world better

You are very socially conscious and a total idealist.
You think there are many things wrong with the world, and you want to fix them.
You have a big idea of how to world could be, and you'll sacrifice almost anything to work towards this dream.

In love, you can easily see the beauty in someone else. And you never cling too tightly.

You are capable of great love, but it's hard for you to focus your love on one person or relationship.
You have a lot of outward focus, and you tend to blame the world for your failures.
You are often disappointed by the realities of life - it's hard for you to accept the shortcomings of the world.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

quite true... not entirely but... maybe...

Newborn huh...

2006-12-18T22:23:00.001+08:00

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance.
On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others.
You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative.
Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you.

Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter.
You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything.
You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships.
Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

hmm... kinda true... says a lot about me....

Not as bright....

2006-12-18T21:47:00.001+08:00

ok am not as bright as tea but i can still accept it that im EXTREMELY BRIGHT!!! hehe

2006-12-14T21:14:00.000+08:00

You Are 8% Slacker

You are anything but a slacker. You're truly a go getter.
You never let laziness get in the way of living your life - and you can't stand to see it in others.

Are You a Slacker?

Nasasakal na ako....

2006-11-24T19:29:00.000+08:00

hay.... am in my depressed mode agen.... why? let's see... umm last thursday, we had our C++ lab exercise. for the whole 3-hour class, our prof gave us a SIMPLE program to work on. and since I was agen, unfortunately, odd-manned out (due to the breaking down of my supposed PC) and was transferred to the other room. I was with 4 more other classmates, freshies i might add, and all I did for the next 3 hours was to stare at my yet broken PC for the second time (I didn't bother asking to transfer to another unit since nahiya narin ako sa prof at sa klase na nagkaklase dun sa room na yun. and i know na wala rin naman akong magagawa eh...) and scribbled random stuff at the pad paper in front of me. my classmates all had their heads glued on their program so i didn't bother asking them either. kanya kanyang gawa kami at hindi sana toh mangyayari kung ndi ako nalipat since mga friends ko eh nasa dapat na room namin... in the end, i just typed something for the sake of doing something at para may mapasa ako kahit papanu kahit na alam kong sure itlog makukuha ku dun. nonsense rin ung code na ginawa ko eh. ndi nagwowork. illogical pa kamo. after that, I've been in a gloomy mood for the rest of the day. heto nanaman ako, thinking i was not really meant for this course, that i would not last til my senior year in comsci, that i don't have anything logical in my poor poor brain, that kahit anong pilit kong aral eh kpag ndi ka tlga magaling maganalyze ng things ay wala ka ring kahihinatnan. Nasasakal na ako sa lahat ng mga kelangang gawin; nasusuka na ako sa mga ginagawa kong hindi ko naman tlga gusto... gugustuhin ko sana ang comsci kung tlgang may natira pang kahit konting logic sa utak ko, kung natural lng sa akin na magsolve araw araw ng mathematical problems... kaso hinde eh. at naipit na ako sa ginagawa ko...dapat tlaga hindi na ako lumipat. dapat tlga nsa pampanga parin ako ngayon, nageenjoy sa pag-aaral ng BMG... kso huli na ang pagsisisi... hindi ko na mabalik ang nakaraan khit na pilit na gusto ko...

hinde ko na alam tlga ano gusto kong mangyari sa buhay ko.... gusto ko lng ng simpleng buhay... simple lang ang hinihingi ko.... kso lng, sa tingin ko kulang pa ang pagdurusa ko para mabiyayaan nito..... wala namang madali sa buhay estudyante... wala namang madali sa mundo... boring ang buhay kung walang mga problema.... ang hinde ko lng maintindihan ay kung bakit nilagay ako ngayon dito sa posisyon ko ngayon.... pinakuha ako ng isang kurso na sa buong buhay ko eh hinde ko pinangarap na pasukan... narinig ku lng ung isang comsci prof na nagsabi sa isa niyang estudyante kahapon, "...pagnagcomsci ka eh parang nagBS Math ka narin. foundation ng comsci ang BS math noh..." BS Math!!! BS sa akin yang subject na yan! pero ndi ku na lalong lalaitin pa yang subj at baka makarma pa ako nyan ng di oras...

sbi ko lng sa sarili ko... bibigyan ko sarili ko ng last chance para kapain kung bagay ba tlga comsci sa akin etong 2nd sem... pero kung hinde ko na tlga kaya, it's going to be OrgComm or BehSci for me....

ay good luck nalang sa akin............

:( :( :(

I LUURVE JAKE!!!

2006-11-20T22:11:00.000+08:00

That's Jake Gyllenhaal for you! hehehe OMG.... i just love him! First time I saw him on film was way back in 'Day after tomorrow' and gosh! I kept on exclaiming to dad that he looks so much like John Mayer, who is also my idol and has the looks too! Then his career just keep blooming. Hanggang nagkaroon ng 'Brokeback Mountain'. This is the only reason why I had this post. Yesh, one year later ku lang siya napanuod (saw it yesterday on DVD) and it was soooooooooo good! um, excuse lang ha pero hindi lang ung mga 'ahem' scenes ang maganda, lahat lahat talaga maganda. It's no wonder why it got so many nominations for the Oscars and Golden Globe. Kahit na hindi sila ganun nanalo ng marami, the best pa rin ang Brokeback! hehehe and Jake! Jake had to play the more feminine role?! WTF?! haha di na bale. Bagay naman sa kanya eh. Basta super duper crush ko na siya. Dati pa naman eh. Nag-uumapaw lang siya ngayon after watching the controversial film. I LUURVE YOU, JAKE!!! wahaha

Btw, also saw 'The Departed' on DVD yesterday starring Matt Damon and Leo di Caprio and as Ozzy said, it was a good film. Yep, also a good one. Nice to know that my 100 bucks was well spent on 2 beautiful films on video.^^

School you may ask? Hmmm I'd rather go on daydreaming about Jake than talk about it. Hindi pa naman hell, pero magulo pa talaga ung schedule ko. Baka kasi madissolve ung isang class ko, eh wala na ibang slot sa schedule ko so madedelay na ako sa math series... damn....

heto nlng sched ko for the week for the rest of the sem:

>>>Monday<<<
CMSC55-----9:00-10:00
CMSC21-----1:30-2:30
NatSci4------2:30-4:00

>>>Tuesday<<<
Math74-------8:30-9:30
PE------------11:00-1:00
Physics51-----2:30-4:00
Physics51.1---4:00-7:00

>>>Wednesday<<
NSTP---------8:00-12:00

>>>Thursday<<<
CMSC55-------9:00-10:00
CMSC21 lab---10:00-1:00
CMSC21 lec----1:30-2:30
NatSci4--------2:30-4:00

>>>Friday<<<
Math74 lec-----8:30-9:30
Math74 lab-----10:00-1:00
Physics51-------2:30-4:00

>>>Saturday<<<
CMSC55--------7:30-9:30

cge hanggang dito nlng pow!~

I LUURVE JAKE!!!!

Freaking awesome!

2006-11-07T09:10:00.000+08:00

Yeah! I've finally finished Kingdom Hearts2 last night! What with all the headache and blurry eyes I've got out of it, it's all worth it! and i must say, the game's FREAKING AWESOME!!! except for the final boss though... grabe... after 4 different forms and he's still alive... gawd... hindi ako tinigilan... and of course, ako naman, after 3-4 game overs per form, buti nlng i got through it. hahahaha even took me 3 hours just to finish the final stage of the game. hahahahahaha basta sobrang ganda ng game promise! enjoy na enjoy!

next stop! sobbbrraaaaaang happy tlga ako sa grades ku... didnt expect to pull it through tlga. heto breakdown:

Chem14--------2.50
Chem14.1------2.25
Math101-------2.75
Math73--------2.75
CMSC11--------2.50
CMSC10--------1.00!!!!! ^____^
COMM3---------2.00
HUM2----------1.50
PE------------1.75

hayun lng. til here! oh sana matuloy ung eat out sa sat! ive been dreading second sem too much already! see ya guys!

Whew!

2006-11-02T18:50:00.000+08:00

Grabe na tong break ku! hehehehe it's fun and i feel so good right now. Why? well kc narelease na lahat ng grades ku sa site ng UPM just now and saw that i've passed every subject! WHEW tlga! grabe.... to imagine that the whole first sem eh iniiyakan ku lahat lhat un! gosh.... well if ever bumagsak ako eh ndi ku rin naman alam kung nu pwd gawin eh.... sabit ako sobra sa dalawang math subj ku ngayon: Calculus and Stats parehas grade: 2.75... pwd na... couldn't ask for more... highest ku cguro eh ung CMSC10 in which i got UNO hahahaha grabe... sobrang dali lng naman kc un eh.. intro to internet... sino ba sa mga kabataan ngayon ang ndi marunong mag-net? (well aside from unfortunate kids out there...) graaaavvveeee..... hyperventilating... breathe in.. breathe out... WHEW!!

next stop, etong week na to, couldn't get enough of MOA (Mall of Asia) tlga! as in nung sunday kc family reunion, celebrated my unc's bday sa may roxas blvd. after nun, nagyaya mga boys (uncs and couz ku na mga lalakwe) na magpaintball so hayun. boyz will be boyz... (except for my ever dearest couz dionne of course... well kung sa bagay.. boy naman siya eh hehehehe^^) kami naman my grandparents, aunts and my little couz all went to MOA na to walk around, fresh air... nagtambay lng most of the time sa fav hang out place ni ama and angkong: dun sa Seattle's Coffee, overlooking kc sa Manila Bay and andun ung hangin so the adults are all there taking a break and chika chika... hangang sa pag-uwi andun parin kami.... after nun, mom and i decided to stay for a while since i convinced her that since its her first time to be at MOA, we should go check it out some more. umuwi na lahat ng relatives ku and mom and i roamed around a bit. sarap naman magwindow shop eh... hehehehe after buying some groceries (oh btw, guys! got 2 free ice skating tix! baka gusto nyu hahaha) we went home na, tired but am so happy seeing my relatives agen. u know naman how i love family get togethers and stuff like that hihihihi

tpus kahapon, nov1, since tradition na sa amin na ndi tlga pumupunta sa sementeryo ng undas mismo kc dami tao, my family and I just got bummed most of the morning, trying to decide kung san kami pwd lumakwatsa. (yesh, even mom got bored at home) after listening and watching Rod Stewart the whole morn on DVD, thank God ama called and asked if we like to go with them to MOA, since it's the place to be at a time like that. we jumped up and down of course. pero as usual, andun parin kami tambay sa Seattle's hanggang sa kinonvince ku nanaman si mami na magwindow shop since nandyan narin kami. agen window shopping was fun! and dami ku ring nakita mga Judenites! saw Christian and his family and Angeli and her mom (both swim mates dati), saw Nicole with her family, i think i saw Benny my batchmate too though am not that sure since am not up in meeting old classmates agen... oh! and mom and i even saw HENRY SY doing his shopping, checking around his gigantic mall with those plain clothes bodyguards and security guards. i was the one who noticed him first in his wheelchair and at first i thought his only his look-alike so i exclaimed to mom, saying and pointing (yesh i pointed to his direction which is very rude indeed) "uy! si henry sy!" and i giggled since i thought it's not really him. bigla nlng sbi ni mami "HOY! OONGA! si henry sy yan!" grabe! i was so embarassed that i had to drag mom out of sight becoz she continue to stare after him as his convoy went from shop to shop. sunod pa ng sunod si mami. sbi ku nga eh wag na. as if namimigay siya ng pera nu. look naman, he looked so ill na in his wheelchair.. so we went on with our shopping expedition... drooling at cool clothes, bags, shoes, etc.... after nun, we head back to Seattle's na and since the adults (my grandparents and dad and aunts and uncs) didn't plan on moving an inch pa, i went with Di and her mom and JahJah to powerstation and wasted 200 bucks on the VIP card and games. grabe ubos agad pera ku sa time crisis lang hay nako.... den for dinner, eto kakatawa tlga, my grandparents seem to crave for fastfood as our big family barged in the Jollibee glass door... hehehehe i was so hungry back then so i ordered for the supermeal... kwento kwento ulit and before going home, my bros and i bought K-Zone at Filbars and they bought NBA 2K7 at Gameline. am so tired on the way home tlga. bagsak sa kama pagkauwi. but it was fun! grabe wanna go back there agen! seems like nakakasawa na pero wen ur with family, i guess it doesn't wear me out anymore! ^___^

next week enrollment na... am not so excited in starting the 2nd sem... feel ku na heto nanaman.... comsci... iiyakan ku nanaman eto... huhuhuhu pero as for now, i dont wanna worry about it that much. it will only affect my positive mood sa sembreak... ive been going to YMCA for a swim lately, trying out my new swimsuit and it was fun! lumabas na lahat ng kalawang sa katawan ku and i hope i can continue to build my shape! hihihihi oh and btw, ive lost 5 pounds over the 1st sem! grabe 110 ako dati 105 nlng me ngyon... sobrang stress kc skul eh... ive experienced not eating for the whole day twice as far as i can remember... oh well.... hehehee

tom, mom and i plan on going to pamps and spend the weekend there... hope everything will work out...

til here then!

until the next post!~

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2006-10-28T19:27:00.001+08:00

OKAAAYYYYY AM GONE MAD

BUT WHO CARES?!?!?!?!

AM FREEEEE NA TLGA!!!!!!!!! AS IN PRAISE THE LORD AM FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOD WORKS IN MYSTERIOUS WAYS TLGA PRAMISE!

REMEMBER NA DAPAT MAY REMOVAL EXAM PA AKO SA CHEM LAB?!?! NAGTEXT A CLASSMATE OF MINE NUNG THURS AND SAID I MAY OPT NOT TO TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!!! AND BELIEVE IT OR NOT! I GOT A 2.25 FOR IT PA! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

PASADO RIN ME SA CS11 LEC!!!!!!!!!!! WOW! AS IN WOW TLGA!! HEHEHEHEHEHHE

I ALSO GOT MY CLASSCARD NARIN SA COMM3 AND WOULD U BELIEVE IT?!?! I GOT A 2 FOR SPEECH CLASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

OK IVE REALLY GONE MAD

SO BASICALLY AM DOING JUST ABOUT WAT MY LIST OF THINGS TO DO FOR SEMBREAK.... DRINKING MYSELF TO DEATH... EATING ALL THE JUNK FOOD I CAN GRAB.... BEING BUMMED.... READING BOOKS (CURRENTLY ON 'PS I LOVE YOU' BY CECELIA AHERN AND ITS A GREAT BOOK! WILL BE FINISHING IT TOM MAYBE...STARTED IT YESTERDAY HEHEHE ADDIK!!), WATCHING DVDS (JUST FINISHED WATCHING 'CLICK' AND 'THE BANQUET' YESTER-NIGHT AND IT WAS AWESOME!!! HAHAHHAA) AND MANY MANY MORE.....

SO HAYUN... SORRY FOR ALL THE CAPS......... HYPER MODE AGEN KC EH HEHEHEH

AND OH BIN PLAYING SIMS2 AND KINGDOM HEARTS2 RIN PALA JUST TO PASS TIME...... NAHILO NGA AKO KANINA SA KAKALARO EH HAHAHAHAHA SLEPT FOR A WHILE.... MUST BE GETTING OLD NA... HUHUHUHUHU

NOOOOOOOOOO I AM NOT THINKING ABOUT DEPRESSING STUFF RIGHT NOW. I WILL ENJOY!!!!!!!!!

I WILL SURVIVE!!!!!!! MWAHAHAHHAHAA^____________^

Freeeeee..... huh?

2006-10-24T22:34:00.000+08:00

ookkkaayyy......

that didn't work out that well... panu ba naman kasi (stop complaining!! geez...)ok erase. erase. i'm suppose to be happy right now. you know, what with all the happenings starting saturday up to yesterday... sa tatlong araw na yan, andaming nangyari... fun siya, sad siya, mixed emotions tlga... oh well... kwento ko nlng dito...

saturday: day of my CS11 finals and MP defense

di pa ako tpus mag-aral nung umaga... wala pa sa kalahati i remember. then si steph (kagrup ku sa MP) came over dito sa bhay and together, nireview namin ung MP for the defense later in the af. kaYM pa namin si Rac, 3rd yr comsci fren ni steph na tumulong sa amin intindihin ung MP (wahahaha!^^ thanks po!) den after lunch, nagmamadali pa kami pumasok kc 1pm ung defense medyo late na kami. met up with pao and angie sa caf and la pa daw si mam so review review pa for finals. mas kinakabahan lang tlga ako sa finals kaysa sa defense eh kc nga la pa sa kalahati inaral ku... mga 230pm na nagstart ung defense. andun lng kmi sa labas ng 114 naghihintay ng turn namin tpus mga 330pm na un nung nalaman nalng namin na kelangan plang bumunot ng number ki mam para malaman mu kung turn mu na. oh well. kami lng ndi nakabunot so naging last to present na kami. 4pm na nun at ndi pa tpus ung 3rd to the last grup. 4pm start ng exam namin sa CS11 lec. pressurized! nung natapus ung 3rd to the last grup, sumugod na ako tsaka si joed sa loob (haha!) para makiusap na panu ung defense. turns out na ndi pa handa sila joed so nauna na kami. kabado! sinet up ku ung MP namin sa laptop ni sir tuano and hayun. start ng defense. ang defensive nga namin sobra eh! Kinareer! (hehe!) kada tanung ni mam and ni sir, sgot kami ng sgot agad! tpus nagulat kmi nung sinabi ni sir na kami lng ung may original na structure ng MP since ung freshmen block, pinagbasehan nila lhat ng structure nila ki John (eto ung freshie na magaling sa programming na nangIINDIAN ng tao...) and kinompliment pa ni sir na nakita niya sa MP namin ung gusto tlaga niya makita sa isang MP. wow sir! tnx ha! so kahit mali mali ung control keys nmin at ung 0 instead of * ang gumagalaw. ok MP namin! ayos! cs11 finals... dont wanna talk about it na. madali lng siya... kung sana nagaral lng tlga ako ng husto... binalikan namin ni angie and step 114 para kunin math101 2nd dep namin. (bagsak aku..huhuhu by four points...)tpus sbay tanung narin ki mam kung nu grade namin sa MP and surprisingly, sbi niya kmi highest! wow! grabe! umuwi kami ni step and angie floating! hahaha super saya!

sinundo ako ni tea sa labas ng gate para sabay kami punta sa hauz ku since magkakaroon kami ng get together that night. pagdating namin dun, andun na sila kat, jubi, clar, schub naghihintay. sumunod na si rich. kwentuhan lng ng kwentuhan since antagal na namin ndi nagsasama. ordered yellow cab pizza. dumating sila ozzy and leo sabay sa yellow cab guy and we ate na. pero d real fun began nung naginuman na kami and may pulutan pa nga eh! (hey! i didnt plan it all! nagulat pa nga ako kay mami eh kasi siya tlga naghanda lahat nun! ang akin lng ay ung pizza and beer. period.) sa room ku ginanap. kami lng ni tea, leo, ozzy and rich ang uminom. KJ ung iba eh. (joke lng!!!^^) while drinking, i even had parokya's inuman session cd playing in the background, ang saya! hehe den ozzy and leo proposed to play poker to which 3 lng sila marunong maglaro. after explaining, everybody tried their hands. by teams pa nga kami eh since 6 players lng dapat: tea and jubi, me and kat, clar and schub (UUY! haha) den ozzy, leo and rich. it was fun! nananlo kami ni kat once haha pero sa huli no more munny eh hehehe. after nun, pekture pekture ang saya saya ehehehe grabe nung hinatid na ni dad sila pauwi, nagOL ako and andun sila lahat sa YM! hahahaa so we stayed up pa hangang cguro mga 1245 na nun wen mom's killing me na, telling me to go to slip since may finals pa me sa monday... bt it was fun! sobrang miss ku na ulit barkadainc ko!!!!! (see my multiply site yesh may multiply ako haha for the pix!)

sunday: lazy sunday....

nothing dat special transpired. i slacked off most of the day... la ksi pumapasok sa utak ku eh... stats.... ugh. mga 6pm we all went to mass (feast day ni St Jude nun). and grabe! tea! u should have been there! hahahaha i saw 3 guys, in front of us, BROKEBACKING!!! hahahahah! tinuro ku ki jeff tpus sinabi ku nagbrobrokeback sila tpus sbi niya sus tinap lng ung shoulder brokeback na daw un?! tpus bigla nalng nakita namin na hinimas ng isang guy ung pwet ng katabi nyang guy. O.O!!!! hahahahaha grabe! u dont do dat while ur attending CHURCH!!!! and naconfirm pa lalo ung suspicions namin when ung peace be with u part na and ung two guys eh nilapitan ung (medyo gwapo pa nga eh) isang guy tpus with pouted lips, trying to kiss his cheeks! magkabilaan pa sila! ahahhahaha! tawa kami ng tawa!!! hahahahaha ^^ so much for being a sunday Christian.... well a lazy sunday turns out to be exciting! wahehehee.....

monday: Math101 (stats) finals

i slacked off agen d whole day.... den finally gave up nung hapon na around 230pm... 430pm ung start ng exam ku. pumasok na ako mga 4pm at kalahati lng ng book ang naaral ku. damn. am so dead. at buti nlng! sa awa ng diyos ay multiple choice ang exam! buti nlng! agen, madali lng ung exam. kung nagaral lang sana ako ng mabuti.. oh well... pero ang mixed emotions part ng day ay ung pauwi na ako. dumaan muna me sa DPSM para icheck kung lumabas na ung exemption list sa Chem14 finals. yesh! andun surname ku! yesh! exempted aku! i was about to float my way home na wen something caught my eye...(and i shouldn't have seen it... ugh..) my punishment for being bad... i even made sure kung ako nga tlga un eh.... Chem lab removals list.. and andun.. anlaki laki ng surname ku... october 30... 1:30pm... wahuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu bat ganun?!?! dapat ngayon plang at nagwawala na ako kc sembreak ku na... and den nakita ku ung post na un... huhuhuhuhuhu why oh why?!?! pero i wanna think of it as a blessing narin since kung ndi ako pinaremovals eh di singko ako nun and have to tolerate another round of chem lab next sem (i hate it tlga!!! grrrr) i also made me think na kc madalas kong lokohin si angie sa prof ku na un eh, saying na ayun na BF ni angie wenever we see him coming. hayan. tuloy. nakarma ako.... huhuhuhuhuhu ang bigat ng feeling ku paguwi .. grabe... cguro mas malala pa ung feeling ng bumagsak sa isang subj... to which i have to face someday.... uncertain pa nga future ku sa comsci eh since la ako pinasa sa CS11 exams... huhuhuhuhuhu

oh well. dats just about it. come what may, am going to have my sembreak na! bahala na ung mga un! adios! ~

things i wanna do wen my REAL sembreak comes...

2006-10-17T15:42:00.000+08:00

just a quick post.... for all you guys to know wat i wanna do with my SHORT (nakakaasar) na sembreak...

10. put away all school books (burn them is more like it...)
9. clean my room (sweep 5 months worth of dust, make sure to scrub hard my table to get rid of ballpen markings and liquid eraser markings left from previous sem's rampage)
8. watch dvds (and make lots of pop corn, buy lots of chips, intoxicate myself with unhealthy but pleasurable junk food all day and all night long while watching dvds)
7. read books that ive bought from NBS's sale last month (and make sure to first blow dust away from the book...)
6. play PC/PS2 games (yeah! il smother my brothers so that i can be in front of the gamestation all day long!)
5. bake pastries (fatten myself with unlimited supply of butter, milk and sugar)
4. be bummed, stare into space (roll over the bed or couch or sofa and sleep all day)
3. go swimming (yeah! il start drowning myself in the pool! ^^)
2. barkada eat outs (my beloved drinking buddies! yes guys! il drink with you once i get my REAL sembreak!^^)
1. visit / have family reunion at pamps (hello world!)

ps. hay grabe sobrang baliw na ako... hahahaha nyways gotta go!
pps. 3 more finals to go... and one MP presentation before sembreak!!!

Am going crazy!!!

2006-10-16T14:21:00.000+08:00

grabe! sobrang sobrang hell week na hindi exagg ang naranasan ku last week and continuing pa dis week. am just passing by ngayon just for an update. sobrang grabe... sa buong buhay ko ngayon k lng naranasan ang patakbo takbo sa corrido dahil naghahabol para sa next exam... grabe na toh... and so buong buhay ko ngayon ko lang din naranasan ung ndi nagaaral for MATH finals at may nasagutan pa akong matino sa exam... grabe... lahat based on memory lang tlga... nagamit ku pa nga ung natutunan ku sa UP pamps tungkol sa calculus eh.. imagine mo!

hay nako, comm3 finals pa tom... den sa sat, CS11 finals and MP presentation na... kainis tlga ung stats! dapat kc ituloy na sa thurs para wala ng problema next week! namove pa sa monday! asar......... and am crossing my fingers and praying to God na sana maexempt ako sa chem finals.... ayoko na ng chem.... wala ako nasagutan sa exam knina...... huhuhuhuhu

I WANT MY VACATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-(

Crucial break before hell week

2006-10-07T19:37:00.000+08:00

ok... dat went ... well...

well, not so well at first... aside from not having the right amount of sleep the past two days, not able to do well in my exams in calculus and comsci hands on yesterday and a while ago, i couldn't think of any better way to cheer myself up... until ozzy and marky came to the rescue... (more of like torturing me at first...^^) i was in cs11 class when they texted me if i wanna join them for a trip to SJ and i only replied after class, and well, i just replied the first thing that came to my mind and i said yes. they fetched me in UP and we first went to mcdo mendiola to grab (me) some lunch before heading to SJ. feels so weird to be back to my old school... i dunno... memories were rushing back in my head... but i don't miss any part of SJ... kaya nga weird ng feeling eh... kasi.. i dunno... kinda nahihiya that i'm there... though i shouldn't be since it had been my home for 13 years... seeing ozzy and marky playing and u know, casually doing what they're doing, playing and kidding around like a kid with no regret about how they're acting... wla lng... ako pa nga nahihiya para sa kanila sa una eh.. kasi there were a lot of unfamiliar (as well as familiar) high school kids goggling at us all the time.. hanggang sa mass! lahat ng nasa baba tumingin sa amin (since nasa taas kami umupo)at least man lng behave! hahaha but oh well, they can't help seeing each other again so can't blame them. hahaha richmond then came and joined us in our mini reunion and we just made kwento about a lot of stuff... rich even toured me around the new facilities sa SJ... hate SJ na nga eh kc they already had 4 new huge computer rooms, equipped with high tech gadgets plus flat screen monitor!!!! grabe un! and for the record, i love what they've done with the chapel... dats the best thing they ever did sa whole face lift ng school... looks so serene and quiet... ang ganda tlga (para sa akin) syempre andun rin ung newly blessed THE lab (which was the old messhall) equipped with 13 new ovens!!!! plus new cooking tools!!! i could've lived there! but anyways, as i discussed with the guys (leo and schuba, take note, schuba was there! came a bit later na) that even though the school looked really nice and improved to get more students coming in, i won't have second thoughts in NOT enrolling my kids (if i'll ever get married) in my alma mater. i dunno.... SJ, for me, is NOT the best school there is anymore... u'd be surprised to find out that there are a lot of other high schools who are far better than SJ. basta un.

the guys and i just ended up chatting and catching up with each other's lives, esp that of schuba, who was doing fine naman except that typhoon milenyo had practically and literally took their whole unit apart, considering the fact that their unit is facing the pasig. nung medyo late na, rich and schuba and the rest of us (leo, marky and ozzy) went separate ways na, but not without taking a snapshot of us in the SJ parish first for keepsake. (love the pic!) so hayun.

the trip home( courtesy of ozzy's car) was... how do u describe it? bonding moment for me and leo and ozzy... mostly naman eh pinagusapan namin ung problema ku... to which alam na rin ng lahat... (it's no wonder na ang unang tanung lagi sa akin recently eh 'gusto ku ba tlga ang comsci'. even schub, whom i don't get to see or even talk that often anymore was like "comsci ka na ngayon db? musta naman? ...gusto mu ba tlga comsci?...mahilig ka ba magkalikot ng computer?..." something to that effect...) haayyy... ngayon plng tlga hirap na hirap na ako... panu pa kaya in higher comsci subjs?!?!?! pls can someone tell me?!?! hayy... my parents and i had 'the talk' agen about this dilemma of mine (to which we often had ever since ngcomsci ako) and the usual questions and the usual answers came like a broken player... nothing new... nothing more... nothing less... 'ako na daw magdecide. if i want to shift/transfer agen to another course/campus. basta't they're there to support me all the way'. like leo said 'ngayon lng nila narealize na i have my own life to live by. ngyon lng nila narealize na they can't force me to do something to their advantage forever.' it's not something bad naman. kaya nga ako sumusunod sa laht ng gusto ng parents eh, since parents know best, right? hay... masyado lng tlga akong mabait. (naku! san nanggaling yan?!?^^) so anyways, like some friends who also gave advices to me dati, ozzy and leo told me to do what i like and that i'm not dat old to pursue something NOT practical (dat is not following my parents' wishes) for a change. i WILL go old if i continue this charade. hay buhay....

well wala na ako magagawa right now except to finish the next 2 hell weeks of exams and finals and MP.... So help me God...

ps. thanks you guys for the day! kahit na sobrang sandali lng tayo nagsama and kahit na ako lang mag-isang girl, u guys never fail to cheer me up ^_____^

Neutral or just plain numb?

2006-10-04T06:53:00.000+08:00

hindi ku na alam anu nangyayari sa paligid ku... everything feels like whirling around me...the days, the events just passed by like a moving train... blurry at ndi ku masyadong makita kung anong meron... ndi pa ako totally immersed sa heavy workload as of now(since ung mga exams ay namove nung nagbagyo) so i guess am perfectly sane pa naman... der's just dis urge in me na parang i wanna stay in comsci na... ewan ku ba kung totoo na toh... kahit na nahihirapan na ako and all, cge parin! ndi ku na iniisip ang hirap. i just want to get it over with. is this a neutral feeling or am i just plain numb? sobrang routine lng cguro mga ginagawa ko... la masyadong kulay ang buhay ng UP... pasok, kinig sa prof, uwi, aral. pasok, kinig sa prof, uwi, aral. pasok... ganun lang ang ginagawa ku araw araw. Cguro may konting pacing around my room and staring into space sa gitna ng routine. other than that, ndi ku na lam kung anu pa pinaggagawa ku. lapit na matapus ang regular classes. it'll go off sa oct 9, etong monday na. pero despite all that, fully loaded parin ang sched ku since tadtad namn ng exams the succeeding days after classes... ndi na kami pinabigyan ng mga prof namin...
anyways, cguro il just drop by my sched for the rest of school days and il be signing off agen...

Oct. 4 ---NSTP reporting
Oct. 5 ---Chem lab reporting
---Hum2 finals
Oct. 6 ---Math73 3rd dep exam(lec)
Oct. 7 ---CS11 lab exam
Oct. 8 ---PE finals
Oct. 9 ---Comm3 extempo speech
Oct. 10---Math101 lec exam
Oct. 11---Math101 lab exam
---Chem lab exam
---Chem lec exam
Oct. 17---Comm3 finals
Oct. 20---Chem lec finals

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Yearbooks...Bulgaran na!

2006-09-24T10:55:00.000+08:00

Grabe just a while ago, dad unearthed some huge musty-looking hardbound books which i mistaken them to be encyclopedias. but boy, when i went to browse the pages, im surprised to see that they're the gradeschool and highschool yearbooks of my uncs (my mom's bros). george and i can't stop laughing at the cute lil pics of my uncs and can't believe wat they actually looked like more than 30 years ago. grabe tlga mga yearbooks na yan! bulgaran na! and marky, yes mark you! i even saw you sa yearbook ng uncle ku! promise! haha nah, just saw a carbon copy of you which means that i just saw ur dad's grad pic nung gradeschool siya and natawa tlga ako! lalo na si george! sbi nga nya eh "uy! si mark! hahahahaha!"

grabe. pero in fairness ang ganda sobra ng yearbook nila dati ah! as compared sa atin ngayon... well sa yearbook ng judenites i mean, na tadtad ng mga ads. kanila nga eh around 10 pages lng un ads section nila. ang dating nya is parang coffee table book na nakikita nyu minsan sa mga lounge area ng mga offices. khit na lumang klase na siya, di hamak wlang laban yearbook ng judenites sa kanilang yearbook!

a thought just popped out of my head. am laughing at the pics of my uncs right now but who knows? somebody might laughed at mine 30 years from now too. no wonder dad kept telling my bros to make sure that they look good in their pic taking. bcoz hangang sa pagtanda mu tlga eh makikita at makikita mu rin siya balang araw. well of cors kung pangit ang labas ng pic mu eh, am pretty sure pagtatawanan yan ng ibang tao (maybe ur old friends, batchmates, teachers or even ur own kids in the future!) sigh. well la na ako magagawa sa itsura ku sa highschool yearbook ko. ganyan na itsura ku forever. but at least wen i graduate from college, il make sure na kung ndi naman kagandahan eh pwd na sa pwd na. hehehe

hayun lng.. just sharing...

omigosh! hafta study na! signing off!!

Last day of sanity...

2006-09-23T20:46:00.000+08:00

today is officially my last day of sanity. ask why? well just for the reason that the next 3 weeks will be hell weeks for me. as in! 1st week of october and il be damned with exams in every subject everyday! that extends up to the 2nd week... how am i gonna pull it through, i dont even know... am not gonna get enough sleep na from now on... God...

just for the record, i did pastillas the last couple of days and it felt great! doing a new recipe feels great! ok naman taste nya... pero kaninang umaga as i tried to do another batch of it, bigla nalng naging malagkit siya... ayaw na nga magmold eh. naasar tuloy ako... grrr... just saved the mold sa ref and il try my hands on it agen tom. sana maging ok na siya... well pastillas will be joining my list of dishes that i've done so far... kahit na ndi ku pa ganun kamaster ung mga dishes na kinocook ku, at least db, am progressing in my past time. dat way, maalis stress ku kahit papaanu. pansin ku lng toh sa sarili ko, dat i really took pride in the dishes that i made... khit na sobrang ndi siya ok tignan or lasa, ndi ako nafrufrustrate kaagad and i always want to try it over and over again para lang makuha ang technique... dis is something new about me narin for all u pipz... la lang... if given a chance na magkaroon lng ako ng time para magaral ng cooking, gagawin at gagawin ku tlga siya.. i dunno why i suddenly had this inkling for cooking... must've been a skill of mine hidden inside me for a long time na and ngyon lang lumabas.. oh well....

Clar's birthday's coming up! HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAR-CLAR! hihihi

so i guess that's about it. back to reality... am going to finish this... i think comsci all the way na... come wat may na...

btw, i went with bessie and my faborito couz knina sa sm mla and kahit na medyo sandali lng kami nagsama, rily felt great seeing them agen.. juz like the old times... most of all rily miz my couz so much.. i dunno... yun yung unang filing na naramdaman ku nung nagkita kita kami sa nbs...(no bessie ndi kita nakalimutan :) ) grabe... well onga naman, considering na lapit na siya maggraduate and busy nrin siya with a lot of stuff, i guess la na nga kami time to catch up with each other's lives. and hey! i have to admit na nagmature narin couz ku! hihihi i dunno... she's gotten a bit serious na.. hehehe but that doesn't mean na nagbago na siya totally. No! improvement nga eh hehehe... am juz not used to seeing her like that... ayun lng. (bessie dont tell her dis ha! :) ) can't wait to get together with the barkada narin! ang tagal pa ng sem break kahit na matatapus na ang september... ang tagal tagal! pati ang christmas! ang tagal pa! huhuhuhu...........

gud luck sa ating lahat - sa laht ng magfifinals na ngayong october.. GOOD LUCK! we can do this! "we're all in this together... One big fight!" hehehe

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Damn decisions...

2006-09-19T09:33:00.001+08:00

I'm going to make this brief coz am sure dad's gonna kill me for using the net in the morning.

Damn me and my bad decisions... can't even come up with a decent one... kakainis tlga... i decided not to go to the field trip last sunday because i want to visit my grandpa in pampanga who got hospitalized... but then mom didn't let me but tagged my brothers with her which was so unfair of her! in the end, i stayed home, doing nothing and taking the time to relax. yesterday, i felt like shit about my decision. i should've gone to the trip... so much for wasting my life on nothing... kakainis!

another thing is that i've been racking my brains out over the fact that i can't stay in this cors that long anymore. ngayon plng nahihirapan na ako... wat more in the higher years??? i wanna take HRIM in diliman but then i'll have to waste a good year and one sem just to get to it... why is life so cruel to me?!?! and now, im in a dilemma. don't know what to choose between wasting my energy and time on my sufferings in comsci or take the longer road to what my heart desired most... seems like an obviously answer but boy if you're only in my position.... im torn apart... part of me just wants to finish comsci and get the hell over it while another part of me wants to be in the arts... im still convincing myself that i can do both just to satisfy everyone. mom promised to send me to culinary school after i graduate... though i don't know if that'll ever happen... plus i can sideline in cooking during my spare time... to which i don't know if i'll ever have... but it's so hard ..... tlga lang.... haayy... if i wanna stay in comsci then i will have to start taking classes with an expert.... im serious.... i don't even know what a motherboard is... haayy....

as of now, am trying to concentrate on what i MUST do. i have to get all requirements done... if i'll let my head fly out of my body agen... then i'll have a hopeless future....

ps. what's mouse in chinese? it's so funny! jeff sed that the chi comp teacher asked them this and they all replied "LAO SHU!" hahahahaha :D

pps. "ai pia tsa eh iya!" go! figh-to! figh-to! figh-to! :D

words of wisdom

2006-08-21T21:07:00.000+08:00

la lng... just wanna share here un sinabi ni iris sa akin through YM... rily sunk in my head hihihihi

purpleberry87 (8/21/2006 3:44:41 AM): hey kathy! i just dropped by
your blog...i know it's hard, pero kaya mo yan! kaw pa! you survived
UPP, you'll survive UPM! and don't, DON'T compare yourself with your
classmates, it's the surest way to get depressed... kala mo lang na
super galing sila, pero they're still human... meron din yang mga
tinatagong weakness... wla bang chinese org dyan sa UPM? it helps a
lot to join an org... coz they're really helpful with stuff... and
don't worry about friends... with your charming attitude, you'll
surely make some in no time! it's their loss kapag hndi ka nila
nilapitan! good luck!

So bangag.... but can't wait for sunday! ^^

2006-08-17T21:01:00.000+08:00

hi... so very bangag the past 2 days... pahamak tlga high school musical... ndi ako natulog tues night kc d ku matapos ang pag-aaral ng stats... but i love it! love it very very much! hihihihi anyways, ask me how the impromptu speech went, i'd only say this: i know i didn't do well a while ago. panu ba kasi? eh un picture na nabunot ku is none other than a condom. a condom! yick... unang tingin ku, ndi ku madecipher kung ano ba tlga siya... kala ku nga sa una eh transparent medicine... ha ha wat a joke. buti nlng at ndi ku sinabi mukha siyang jellyfish! hhahahaha! nalaman ku nlng kung ano un after ilang seconds of looking at it. hay nako. so i end up talking about sex education for a good 5 mins and ilang seconds. ayos buti na un at umabot ng 5 mins. tres na ang pinakamababang grade na makukuha ku. pero k lng. am never much of a speaker naman eh. sa una nga, sbi ku baka bumagsak ako nito sa comm3. hay.... anyways, i wanna go to sleep na ngayon but can't... because of stupid turbo c dat doesn't run!!!! grrr.... ndi macompile un program na sinulat ku... huhuhu one week... one week ku na kinalikot un ayaw parin. tinanong tanong ku na lahat lahat ng tao, ndi nila lam panu gawin... grrrr... Lab exam na sa sat. am gonna fail na tlga at this point.... so much for being in comsci... dis is wat i get... a punishment.... huhuhuhu

but the good news is: my family and i are going to pamps to visit my unc and aunt and cousins and especially angkong dis coming sunday! woohoo! miss pamps so much na tlga... kung may chance tlga... pipilitin ku sila mami na pumunta ng sm clark... wala lang... ndi pa ako nakakapasok dun eh... wanna see it tlga.... ive spent one year... one year looking at the empty space progressing into a structure.... and i didn't even get a chance to go inside... so hayun lng... excited na ako hihihihi

so anyway, there you have it. my hectic life in a span of 4 days in a nutshell. til then!

Start of something new

2006-08-16T22:54:00.000+08:00

Start of something new
by: Zac Efron and Vanessa Anne Hudgens
OST: High school musical

Living in my own world
Didn't understand
That anything can happen
When you take a chance

I never believed in
What I couldn't see
I never opened my heart
To all the possibilities

I know
That something has changed
Never felt this way
And right here tonight

This could be the start of something new
It feels so right to be here with you
And now, looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
It's start of something new

Now who would ever thought that
We'd both be here tonight
And the world looks so much brighter
With you by my side

I know
That something has changed
Never felt this way
I know it would be

This could be the start of something new
It feels so right to be here with you
And now, looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
It's start of something new

I never knew that it could happen til it happened to me
i didn't knew it before but now it's so easy to see

This could be the start of something new
It feels so right to be here with you
And now, looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart
That it's the start of something new
It feels so right to be here with you
And now, looking in your eyes
I feel in my heart (feel it in my heart)
It's start of something new
It's start of something new
It's start of something new...

>>> OMG!!! High school musical the best! I finally got the chance to see it on dvd yesterday and it's soooo nice! No wonder my friends talked about it so much the past reunion... Definitely a must-see! (grabe, right now, am so addicted to this song..... and pahamak tlaga kc pinanuod ku siya kahapon and i hav 2 exams today.... ndi ako marunong ng stats kanina...haha....) <<<

My worth...

2006-08-16T01:56:00.000+08:00

I am worth $1,272,330 on HumanForSale.com

Kabaliwhan...

2006-08-10T22:44:00.000+08:00

Hay nako. Hindi ku na tlaga alam anong mangyayari sa buhay ko. I just want out. Out of this life. I wanna go some place that's far away from here. Gusto ko makipagcommune with nature agen... Miss pamps... miss the green pastures there... Talagang mas ok ang buhay doon kaysa dito... But what can I do? I'm already here. My life's messed up already. I'm falling apart. Ever since school started, I did nothing else but cry every week. Buti ngayon medyo nagsawa na ako. Pero the past few weeks had been hell. Not literally heavy work load. I just can't catch up with the other geniuses. Ano ba tong pinasukan ko? Ayoko na.... Last week, I desperately want to shut myself from the world na. I don't want to continue my studies sa UPM na. But then, what am I still doing? Tinitiis ku nalang lahat ng ito. I'm not making any sense in everything. I'm failing my subjects. I'm not exerting any effort to it at all. I'm wasting my youth. I'm losing my touch. I get easily irritated and annoyed by anything around me. My parents won't listen to my problems; nagsasawa narin sila sa mga angal ko. My friends are busy in their schools. I don't have someone I could call a friend sa UPM. It sucks. But it is not my main concern. Though sometimes the people who enters your life may dictate the flow of your destiny. Pero sadly, wala talaga eh. I took this risk. I am now faced with its consequences, consequences that I can't handle myself. I wanna tear myself apart na. Can't really take it anymore. Mababaliw na ako kapag tinuloy ku pa tong kalokohang to...

They make life worth living

2006-08-01T01:02:00.000+08:00

am so stressed out! ever since nag exam kami last week and nung nagkasakit ako 2 weeks ago, super duper pagod tlga. life here in manila is so tiring... makes me want to go back to pamps... simple lang life dun... kahit na nagcracram ka ng project/paper/exam, ndi mu siya mafefeel... i dunno why... pero pagdating dito parang everything has to be on the rush mode... napakapolluted pa... biro mu, naguumpisa palang ng school year ku dito 2 beses na ako nagkalagnat? 2 weeks ago at knina the whole day nilalagnat ako. buti nlng nawala na siya ngayon kung di am so dead sa wed exam ku... samantalang nung nsa pamps ako, never ako nagkasakit. migrain lng and dats dat. hay nako... nacoconfuse pa tlga ako sa cors ku ngayon... never liked comsci tlga eh... i just decided that it's the right thing to do... and maybe, just maybe magugustuhan ku rin siya. dats what i tot nung una. ngayon, ndi ku na alam. ang hirap. fil ku ndi ako tatagal dito. ive been wasting my years agen.... grrr.... been crying over it rin kanina, nung kinakausap ku si mami... la na akong ginawang matino kung di magreklamo at magmukmok sa bagay bagay... am so depressed tlga ngayon.... dont mind me nlng...

last sat night was the best night ive ever had since school started... nag get together kami ng barkadainc sa wan chai and it felt really really great seeing and talking and joking around with them agen... nag inuman pa nga sila eh. sila tea, mark and ozzy, d pa nakakainom, lasing na.. lasing na sa kakatawa.. haha... there are times wen i just wanna give up, not continue living this damn sh*t life, i think about barkadainc. mas gumagaan feeling ku kapag sila naiicp ku.... oh sh*t.... naiiyak na ako ngayon.... kc tlga lang, ayoko na mabuhay eh. i dont see anything worth while in this life.... pero kapag naiicp ku barkadainc, at least everything subsides... ndi totally nawawala un depressing thought pero at least ok na ako... like ngayon. am just so depressed agen and here they are. we are chatting over YM and khit na ganun lang. they always make me smile and forget about my problems. they simply make life worth living tlga. i dunno wat to do without them...

love u barkadainc... good luck sa ating lahat... wag kayong gumaya sa akin na madaling sumusuko... hehehe... hope to see you guys soon!~

Things to Ponder

2006-06-24T17:58:00.000+08:00

After going to SM Manila and join the 3-day sale craze, I am now left to watch over the store until closing time. And I had nothing else to do so I decided to go blog hopping. Upon reading my friends' blogs, my mind is filled with a lot of things and realizations to ponder. All these made me think and reflect about my own life and the way I live it. I realize that I'm not doing a good job at it. It's only in a matter of time when the heavier changes mark their places in my life if I don't do something about it.

First, I realized that not everyone is fortunate in their lives as I am now. By fortunate, I meant about their happiness. Here I am, always complaining about how simple my life is when I knew about the fact that living in simplicity is the best way to live a happy life. I've always want a lot of material things. Who doesn't? And people vary, I might add. I was browsing through a very materialistic girl's blog who can have everything she ever wanted and the next minute, I was sympathizing this person who is describing his/her financial problems in the family. But as I grow up, my long list of material things is cut short because then, I knew that these don't really give me everlasting pleasure. But still, a fact remains that I want this and I want that. Right now, I wish I have my own personal computer with DSL just as I have requested from my parents. But I didn't give them a specific deadline. That would be too harsh considering the fact that we too are suffering financially. I am always thinking of helping out with our family's finances but as usual, I am not brave enough to face the world. I can't even bring myself to find a part time job. Oh boy and if you could just read my mind right now, I am trying to plan the next barkada eat-out which would mean another round of spending. I should try and talk with my friends about spending quality time together and not just spending money worthlessly. And I should get my lazy ass off the bed and get serious about work (and studies) this time.

Next thought that came into my mind is that I think I am losing my sense of individuality. I didn't even try to improve myself. I always see studying as an obligation to fulfill, a routine imposed by the norms of the society. I never thought about work afterwards, which brings me back to my being a lazy pig. I do what I have to do; I study what I have to study. And that's it. Ask me what I WANT to do after college and I'll go mute for the rest of my life. That's why I always had my mom to decide what's best for me, just to have this feeling of security. You're right about whatever you've been thinking about me: I don't know what else to do if no one's there to decide for me. And yep, like I said, I'm a lazy pig, a sloth who always have the comforts of life: the security of my home, my family and my friends. I now wonder what will become of me in the next 5 years? Will my mom still be there to pick out my interviews for a job? Will my mom still be there to even choose my husband-to-be? I doubt that but if I don't do something now, I might regret it for the rest of my life. I just hope I know what I want...

Lastly, I'm losing my creative touch in almost everything that I do. I already suck in writing stories, drawing anime characters, even cracking some jokes. I feel so... dry...and empty. I see my batchmates weave good short stories, whip up some dance moves, do promising acting jobs, excel in academics, pursue athletic dreams, improve their sense of humor naturally and all I can do is to gape and loll at them enviously. I don't even know what's keeping me except that I can't do it the natural way. I always tend to worry about everything that I do. The fear of criticism always gets to me first though I know I shouldn't be doing that. I just can't help it. In the next 5 or 10 years, when an announcement of a high school reunion is made, I fear that I have nothing to share about myself: an accomplishment that's life-changing or even a simple joke. I am totally an uninteresting person, an average person who's still trying to follow a basic cycle of routines. And I tend to be practical about a lot of stuff. That's also the reason why I never had the chance to discover my talents. I'm attracted to the idea of playing a musical instrument, a guitar specifically. But due to the time and money it demands, the thought of enrolling myself in a music school never crossed my mind again. I love experimenting in the kitchen, baking for example. But because we don't own an oven and the expenses in acquiring food ingredients has always been a burden to not only my parents but also to me, I ,as of now,gave up any hope of becoming a chef someday. Sigh. I just realize that I have no talent at all. All I can ever do is to improve myself by studying, to which I don't even find any meaning to it all except that it is a must...

I am currently feeling pessimistic about college because as a transferee to the new school and as an irregular student, I have no real friends to walk by with. Things have gone pretty dull for me. I have been acquainted with different kinds of people in every subject that I'm in. At most times, I go to school alone. I go to the comfort room alone. I go to the library alone. I eat my lunch alone. I switch classrooms alone. I eat my snack alone. I go home alone. Sometimes, I play with the idea of talking to myself, ALONE. At first, I can't take it. But since it's been the 2nd week of school for me, I got used to it so much already. But still, it left my with a saddening feeling I cannot describe. All I ever want to do right now is to pass the sem in flying colors...a thing that I have to do... alone...

Movies 101

2006-06-18T09:49:00.000+08:00

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 80 movies, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 168 movie titles on this list. Put your score in header and repost.

( ) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
( ) Pirates of the Caribbean
( ) Boondock Saints
( ) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
( ) Neverending Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
( ) My First Mister
( ) The Virgin Suicides

Total: 1/11

( ) The Princess Bride
( ) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
( ) Labyrinth
( ) Saw
( ) Saw II
( ) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
( ) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement

Total: 3/12

( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
( ) Scary Movie
( ) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
( ) Scary Movie 4
( ) American Pie
( ) American Pie 2
( ) American Wedding
( ) American Pie Band Camp

Total: 0/11

(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil I
(x) Resident Evil 2
( ) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
( ) The Village
(x) Lilo & Stitch

Total: 7/10

(x) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
( ) Signs
(x) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) White Chicks
( ) Butterfly Effect
(x) 13 Going on 30
( ) I, Robot
(x) Robots

Total: 4/10

( ) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
( ) Never Been Kissed
( ) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) Joe Dirt
( ) King Kong

Total: 3/12

(x) A Cinderella Story
(x) The Terminal
( ) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
( ) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumber & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Final Destination 3
( ) Halloween
(x) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
( ) Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber

Total: 4/14

( ) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
( ) Chicago
(x) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards

Total: 1/9

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play
( ) Seed of Chucky
( ) Bride of Chucky
( ) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
( ) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
( ) Remember the Titans
( ) Coach Carter
( ) The Grudge
(x) the Mask
(x) Son Of The Mask

Total: 4/14

(x) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Se7en
(x) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
( ) The Fog
( ) Ice Age
(x) Ice Age 2: The Meltdown

Total: 3/13

(x) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
( ) War of the Worlds
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2

Total: 4/12

( ) Best Bet
( ) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( ) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(x) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
( ) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
( ) The Terminator
( ) Terminator 2

Total: 2/12

(x) X-Men
( ) X2
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
(x) Sky High
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
( ) Catch Me If You Can
( ) The Others
(x) Freaky Friday
( ) Reign of Fire
( ) Cruel Intentions
( ) Cruel Intentions 2
( ) Cruel Intentions 3
( ) The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2

Total: 7/17

( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
( ) Old School
(x) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(x) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
( ) The 40-year-old-virgin

Total: 2/11

ALL in ALL: 45/168

heck! marami akong pinapanuod pero la naman sa list eh! hahahaha at least hindi rin ako ganun ka-bummed sa buhay....

Torn apart....

2006-06-02T19:54:00.000+08:00

ok.. a lot of things had happened lately... and am so depressed i can't bring myself to make kwento... am being torn apart... and i totally suck in decision making.... how on earth would i know how to choose what's right for me??? ive been so used to having somebody decide for me all the time. at first, when i was younger, i usually rebel against it since it's my life. i thought i can take care of myself. but then recently (my senior years of high school and college) ive let other people, especially my parents, to dictate what's right for me. well, giving in to what they want had given me all the benefit of trust. and i tell you, all kinds of benefits, including independence, which i long to have very much. but lately, they suddenly left me all alone, saying it's gonna be mine to decide na what i want to do with my life. which was weird at first. frustrating now. hindi ako pumasa sa kahit anong course na inapplyan ku sa UPD. i thought the devil himself had been playing tricks with me. God seems to be getting crueler and crueler to me, punishing me for all the misdeeds that i've done for not giving me a chance to study there. He gave me a ray of hope though and that is passing me in UP mla but the problem is, the course there is not right for me. my future would be uncertain when i take it up. computer science had been out of the blue. many people can justify my hesitance and that includes my beloved couz, di-on. ive never been good with computers. God bless my computer teacher's soul in highschool for going through with students like me; always wanting to take the easy way out because of the difficulty in debugging the program codes in computer.and now my mom's letting me reconsider it since it's closer to home. and im so confused for the past few weeks that i really haven't decided yet. i guess am into last minute again. i so envy some of my friends in upepp who are transferring to UPD this coming sem. and i have to go back there, defeated. sigh. God help me on this....

i couldn't go on much longer...

i couldn't think straight...

my head's throbbing now...

just thinking of it makes me want to puke....

i suck....

=(

Easily annoyed...

2006-05-28T20:30:00.000+08:00

hay nako.... kakainis tlga tong buhay na to... am getting pretty annoyed by all that's happening around me today... i'l admit na wala na akong ibang ginawa today the whole day kung di nakatitig sa tv at maganime marathon. dat's prince of tennis and am really getting addicted to it. am practically bummed the whole day. pero kc si mami eh. porket mawawala sila dadi for one week, she keeps on nagging me and getting in my nerves!!! kakainis tlga... first, kagabi tinanong ku lang kung maganda un chinese cinderella book dat tea lent to me since inumpisahan kc nya kahapon. pangit raw at pinagtitiyagaan nlng daw nya! damn her! can't she appreciate literature??? am so irritated with her response na medyo nagalit ako sa kanya. tpos kaninang umaga buti nlng at nakapagswimming ako kung di sumabog na ulo ku ngayon. she kept on nagging me na kung san na ako magaaral at ilang beses ku narin sinasabi sa kanya na babalik na ako ng pamps. the whole day imagine dat! the whole day at hindi ako tinigilan. grrr!!!!! tpos ngayong gabi, sinabihan ako na ang pandak pandak ku na kc un isa kong pinsan dumaan dito and mas matangkad na siya sa akin. (younger than me) il admit again na kasalanan ku na hindi ako kumain ng growth pills nung growing age ku pero am perfectly happy with my height. ive stopped wishing na sana tumangkad pa ako kc ive learned na if you can't appreciate urself then your not gonna appreciate the other things. tanggap ku na yan. sila mami ndi. i just wish i could swear in front of her. pota tlga. tpos isa pa yang bagong katulong. nagmamagaling sa harapan ni mami at sa harap ko. lahat ng puri na maisip ni mami eh nasabi na nya sa bgong katulong. ewan ku lng wats up with me today. ang sakit sobra ng ulo ku now. pero ive grown green with jealousy tlga, as ive realized some time tonight kc pag-aari ku dati un kusina nung wala pa kaming katulong. nung dumating yang puchang katulong na yan eh she took from me what i love to do. kaya ano ginawa ku? nilait lait ku un niluto nya na tlga namang walang lasa and everything. and i gave her the look to get lost. hay nako. naiinis lang tlga ako today. so pls don't bother me.

mall of asia sucks. as much as possible, if i still cant dissuade u not to go, do not go there on weekends. yan lng ang masasabi ko.

but the company of friends had been the best. kwentuhan to the max and well, il sure miss them again when school starts.......

cge hangang dito nlng. ang sakit na tlga ng ulo ku... probably from staring too much at the boob tube....

Sugar, Spice and everything nice!

2006-05-24T19:39:00.000+08:00

ok so i don't think i'm that unlucky anymore since i found the 500bucks (yes its 500 not 300 as i found out)folded inside the pockets of my pants and i jumped for joy last week. as in! pero syempre a fact still remains na hindi pa ako tanggap sa UPD... sa UPM naman eh i went to check the results kanina and well pasado moi sa computer science! But i don't know if i'll take it. hindi naman sa nagyayabang or anything kasi i don't know if magagamit ku un comsci after i graduate eh. o kaya naman eh hindi ku tlga field ang computer. am not a patient person towards computer programming. so hayun. am into reading novels again after tea sent me some of her books. plus! kakaaddict ang kingdom hearts sa PS2!!! hhihihihihi just bought it yesterday and its a blast!

so anyway, wat's bday girl's up to from this day onwards?? Well first thing first, i need to settle my score dun sa future ku. as in hindi ku pa alam ano ang gagawin ku sa buhay ko since mami's kept on pressuring me on this and that tpos sa huli sasabihin nya sa akin na ako na bhala magdecide sa huli. parang gets mo? guguluhin pa nya ako sa mga bagay bagay like sasabihin nya na maganda ang food tech kasi magagamit ku siya. tpos ano ang gagawin ku sa bus econ since she just heard from some pipz who graduated from UP econ na ang usual na bagsak ng graduate sa econ eh bank teller. tpos etong comsci pa. parang eto na nga lang ang biyaya na natanggap ku para sa aking kaarawan (wow! ang lalim haha) eh tatanggihin ku pa. parang ganun. tpos tatanungin sa akin kung ano na ang kukunin ku. hay nako. i have to go with the flow as tea would quote. .......

......

am not really into this kind of stuff...

going with the flow thingy....

but am going to try....

next thing is that i have to act and talk maturely na. isip bata parin kc me hanggang ngayon eh. hay nako. then i have to at least make the best out of my creativity ( i dont know if i have it though) and hone it to the best of my abilities kasi as in kelangan ku na magstart doing something reasonable sa buong buhay ku and not just delaying all these and slack off. (most of the time, i do) and next thing, i have to start earning some moolah since we're so broke right now i don't want to bother mom or dad with my finances. its going to be so unfair for their part na wala na ako ibang ginawang matino eh gagastos ku pa pera nila. am not much of a nerdy type when it comes to the academics so i wont be able to bring some honor to them but i will at least try and help them manu-manu. next thing is i will use up all the courage that i never had and kakapalin ku na mukha ku from now on. lagi kasi me nahihiya sa halos lhat ng bagay eh. (except when am with my family friends and relatives, ibang usapan na yan) i will also learn how to drive and will also learn how to cook decent foods. para in the long run, i could open my own resto or something. basta something to do with cooking. really love it kahit na hindi halata when you see me. i tend to slack off kasi when i saw that someone's available to do the cooking na eh. mas gusto ku solo ku ang kusina then il try my hands on something. experimenting on my own....

so hayun. bday resolutions ku cguro for the next 365 days of my new life starting today.

so i guess that explains my title. hindi lahat sa buhay eh everything nice. dapat tlaga may spices na kasama para magblend in lahat. ^___^

aja!~

Another series of forseen unfortunate events

2006-05-18T08:08:00.000+08:00

ok so im totally done for it na. i tot dat the disastrous interview would be my first and last interview id have in my lifetime and it seems that fate tricks me again. i have to do another one with college of home econ, food tech this coming friday. hay nako... and they're gonna ask me again if i love eating filipino foods ek ek... hay nako... tpos mamyang gabi, mom and i have to go to pamps and meet with an important person with my uncle because... well.. i really dunno wat and why we're there. i guess i have to find out later pero sa tingin ku, its gonna be another interview... hay nako.... but i miss pamps na so much i cannot contain my excitement to go back there later. miss ku na pinsan ku, rabbit ku, the environment, etc... hihihi plus! i wanna see sm clark!!! hihihii. but anyways,

an unfortunate event had fallen on me the other day... while i was visiting my grandparents sa quiapo... i lost the 300 bucks my dad gave me to buy some cake for my grandparents. so am totally grounded for it. wala na nga kaming pera eh i still have to waste that money. kakainis tlga. pinasok ku ata kamay ku sa pocket ku to chek if the money's still there tpos sumama ata un money sa paglabas ku ng kamay... grrrr.... ndi tuloy me pwd lumabas for the rest of the week except going to pamps later and UP tom... haaayyy

grabe... next week na!!!! next week na ang judgment day!!! hahaha OMG!!!! tatanda na me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! well, since i lost the money, i think am gonna share cake with my dad since his bday in on monday while il be on the wed. hay. pero ok lang hahahaha its fun sharing cake naman eh.^___^

and so, am still waiting for the series of unfortunate events to unfold right before my eyes for the next few weeks... i just hope i would be able to handle all that...

Lumilipas ang panahon....

2006-05-14T19:11:00.000+08:00

Ang bilis ng oras! And to think na we'll all go back to school again! Gosh... I know am so bummed dito sa bahay pero siyempre its better to be bummed than u know... school... para akong bata... but anyways, ang dami na nangyari for the past week. Tinamad nanaman ako kaya hindi ako nakapag-update kaagad but anyways, here goes:

Dapat may eat out barkada nung friday early dinner somewhere in ongpin pero kasi nagka-emergency sa relatives ku so mom and dad were out in the hospital and i was left at home. si clar dumating ng maaga dito sa bahay at dapat sabay kami ppunta dun sa place kaso lang i just can't leave the house so ang nangyari, dito nlng kami sa bahay ku, like good old times, kumain ng pizza while chika to the max. mga 5 lang nga kami eh: clar, tea, me, lenard and ozzy. pero masaya kasi kwento nga ng kwento mga tao. tpos halos nagwawala nga sila clar and ozzy eh. hahaha si tea, gosh miss ku na tlga siya hihihihi sent her a letter nga eh. just like the old times rin. Hay... but anyways, ako narin nanlibre ng pizza so if you guys are reading this: no more blowout on the bday ha!!!! hahahaha tpos na ako magblow out okies? and you guys happen to be the lucky ones to enjoy it! hahaha...

hay nako... i just recently found out na hindi me tanggap sa business admin and mass comm... oh well, nung tues ko siya nalaman when i went to my mass comm interview, to which i totally screwed up. kakainis. of all the zillion questions na pwd nila itanong sa akin, tinanong pa if i like to watch filipino films (my course kc is film and audio visual) eh hindi tlga ako nanunuod ng filipino films eh well... kc i really dont like them much. as in bilang na bilang ang mga pinapanuod ku. kung no choice tsaka ku lang pinapanuod. so i answered no because i prefer foreign films than those. pota....its not totally a good answer, the worst infact... im screwed... bahala na... 3 more courses to go: bus econ, food tech and comsci sa manila...kung ndi me tanggap sa 3, well, i will just have to return to pamps and just finish up my studies there... kahapon ku nga lang din nalaman na sila noel, harny and mae tanggap na sa college of engineering eh... good for them... parang gusto ku narin makalipat... hay.... my dad's totally against me finishing my studies sa pamps. nagalit pa nga siya sa akin kasi gusto na nya tlga ako sa lasalle. i admit, i worship lasalle dati nung senior pa ako pero ngayon, medyo ayoko na dun eh.... i have decided to go back to pamps to finish which my mom supported me and well, mag-ingat lang daw. so i really have no choice but to hope and really hope hard na pasa me sa bus econ... pero naiimagine ku na na if ever ndi me tanggap, things in up pamps gonna change a lot, with some of the peeps i usually see gone.... haay....

anyways, summer to do list ku almost finish! i didn't really fix my room (because it got a painting job na) so it practically just fix up itself haha, ive got to cooked decent meals... and yep, i did more than one (i just tried cooking sinigang a while ago and its great!^^), i did my wardrobe just a while ago and got rid of some, my barkada trip in tagaytay didn't push through so wala na un, i went swimming na with my dear couz pero looking forward to swim pa maybe tom since member na me sa ymca (sino gustong samahan ako??? may bayad nga lang hehe), and most importantly, ive already finished my wild arms4 game last week! wahoo! ang saya niya promise! hehehe im playing it again nga eh to straighten out my wrongs hihihi.so yun driving, writing, losing, and traveling nlng ang naiwan sa list ku.... hehehe...

well dats just about it in a nutshell... hayy....

So bored I could pass out...

2006-05-06T19:42:00.000+08:00

Hay grabe. Wala na ako ibang ginawa the past two weeks kung di magPS2, magluto ng lunch and dinner, magfriendster, magblog, maglakad lakad, magtext, or practically just getting bummed. I'm feeling kinda guilty about it nga eh since all my other friends have their summer classes or summer jobs while here i am, fattening myself up. Buti nlng nung friday natuloy tlaga lakad namin nila twintwin and adeline and clar and mark sa RP. Miss ade and twintwin so much na and seeing them again after a year felt great! Ndi parin sila nagbabago, makulit at maloko parin. We ate lunch there na before watching Mission Impossible. I tell you, it's not worth watching the movie in a moviehouse. Sayang lang. MagDVD ka nlng. Kasi un whole plot nya ndi ganun ka-OK eh. Dragging un story and it seemed that Tom Cruise's girlfriend got kidnapped again, the usual story. Parang mas maganda parin un first and second MI. But anyways, nag-enjoy naman kami with the company. kwentuhan to the max. kulang ang isang buong araw nga eh. Bitin pero pwde na kaysa wala. Kulang lang sila jubi and sharleen. sayang. but anyways,it was fun!

Sana pwd barkadainc mag-eat out next week. kahit dinner lang pwde na basta sama sama kami and kwentuhan to the max. hindi ku pa pinapaalam sa kanila since everytime I arrange a gimmick with them for like a week before, laging ndi natutuloy. mas mabuti pa na 2 days before ku itetext sila para at least, more or less matutuloy siya. hay....

Oh btw, si Royce na high school seatmate ku grabe isang candidate na pala sa Miss Earth 2006!!! I just saw the mail sent by my other classmate na pasok na siya. Grabe. I can't believe it. Nanalo siya Miss Sportsfest 2002 sa annual sportsfest namin sa school tpos just last year, she won Miss Chinatown 2005. She represented the country sa isa pang beauty pageant sa HongKong early this year pero walang balita if she won any awards there eh. Malamang wala pero at least she got there na! Grabe I can't believe it na si Royce na dating kaharap ku sa classroom, na laging cheerful at makulit at malakas mangasar, na laging nagpapatulong sa akin sa mga homeworks nya ay going public na! I'll bet anything na magiging model siya sooner or later. Hehehehe

Hayun lang. Until then. Snooze out...

Oh btw...

2006-05-02T14:34:00.000+08:00

By th way, i went swimming rin pala with my dear cousin sa Hyatt hotel last sunday and it was great! Kahit na maliit lang pool nila, at least i get o swim again!!! Most of the time, nagbabad lang kami while catching up with our lives. Occasionally, we would do laps. Grabe ang sarap sa katawan. and regretfully, i got sunburnt since i forgot to bring some sunblock with me... haaaaayyyyy am burnt to crisp again... can't wait to swim again! hehehehe

and after watching a really fantastic movie last night, i went to change my top 10 movies na. go see it for yourself. ^__^

Extreme Makeover

2006-05-02T13:46:00.000+08:00

I feel so good about myself for the past few days (including today) that nothing's gonna change my mood now... For once, i was able to cook a decent meal!!! That's something I've been trying to do and yey! I did it without messing something up! First I tried cooking some pasta and it went well! Then yesterday, I minced some chicken strips and made cream of chicken soup. My family loved it! hihihi am not bragging or anything, its just dat i wanted so badly to cook without forcing somebody to eat the whole crap up. Just a while ago, I tried my hands on chicken afritada and it's delicious! hehehehehe^^ I wanna get my hands again and experiment something new later for dinner. hope it goes well. and i miss baking so much!!! i wanna bake some choco chips again.... huhuhuhu... but anyways.

yesterday was definitely one heck of a day because the whole family got to strip the house down!! Yey! You know the show "Extreme Makeover" in channel 9. The one about rebuilding a family's house to make it a home? That's just exactly what we did on Labor's day. Mum and dad decided to give our home a new look so they had us kids strip down all the wallpapers on the bedrooms so that the painters, who arrived early this morning, could do a painting job on the old crappy walls. My bros and I had fun tearing our house down hahaha^^ it's something you just don't do everyday. i even asked dad if after painting the walls white, i could paint designs on the walls. sadly, i know, its a bad idea. hehehe never mind. whitewashed walls looks heavenly anyways.^__^

aside from doing our house some makeover, believe it or not, the rallyists and anti-Gloria factions marched right down our street! Never in my lifetime nor that of my parents as they claimed, had the rallyists staged their convictions in front of our house. there had been thousands of them. we also saw media people and cameramen running around, doing their stuff. there weren't that much police though and its a good thing nothing dangerous happened. the rallyists stayed for a while. dad said they're trying to recruit more members to join them as they march towards mendiola. heck, they should've went some place else if i were them. but anyways, it's fun seeing people on the street, with their flags and angry banners up, raised voices over the microphone and people chanting all together. that clearly doesn't happen everyday. hehehehe

and so, my daily routine continues. i haven't been able to start my story writing yet though. feeling kinda idle talaga eh. and really disappointed na baka ndi nanaman matuloy un barkada trip namin sa tagaytay this sunday. wala kami transpo.... haaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyy.... maybe i could gather some peeps up instead this sunday and go watch a movie or a simple get together...hmmm... my mind's scheming again... wahahaha^^

today's my younger bro's bday and no, nothing extraordinary's happening yet... and that means, my bday's and that of dad's coming up as well... gawd... hate growing old.... really... why do we have to grow old huh??? haaaaaaayyyyyyyyy..... so, am still 18 for about 22 days left before i go to the last of my teen years....grrrr... in chinese calendar, am done for it. am already 20! gawd.....

anyways, at least my summer to do list is fast summing up! still haven't enrolled for a driving school though... haaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy...

as for any other stuff else, ok na me. not that obssessed anymore. hahahha good grief!! and GOOD RIDDANCE!!!! so long, old habit of mine!!! ^^ until then!!

What is wrong with me???

2006-04-30T18:30:00.000+08:00

Gawd... I hate it.... Believe it or not... am still doing it...

BESSIE!!! WHERE ARE YOU??? PLS HELP ME.... GAWD... HATE THIS KIND OF LIFE...

barkadainc!!! wag na torpe!!! labas na tayo!!! can't take it anymore....

oh sh*t... have to stay at home... wala pa la akong pera.... i shouldve taken that job over at my unc's!!!! grrrrrr....

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!?!?!?!

:(

Top Ten Fav Movies of the Year (my year of course!)

2006-04-29T19:16:00.000+08:00

10. Brothers' Grimm
9. Supersize Me
8. Princess Diaries II: Royal Engagement
7. The Myth
6. Nanny McPhee
5. Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children
4. 50 First Dates
3. Cheaper by the Dozen I
2. Bruce Almighty!
1. Ever After ( A Cinderella-like movie) the greatest!~

Regrets and plans

2006-04-24T20:09:00.003+08:00

I regretted not having the barkada Tagaytay trip.... it could've been one helluva trip if you ask me... it's just that everybody's like backing out the last minute... tpos kung kelan nacancel na tsaka sinabi na pwede na sila sumama... i don't blame them though... sa una pa lang, everybody knew this is going to happen anyway... hay.... may next time pa naman eh...

Anyways, next stop. I won't be going back to pamps to work there this summer... thankfully... Sa una, dapat andun na ako ngyon and for the next 2 weeks, dapat nasa office na me ng uncle ko, arranging papers, checking the receipts, encoding the serial codes, ek, ek.... thankfully... i haggled with mom... if i stayed home, then i have to do all the household chores...

umalis na si mercy.... our long time maid dito sa bahay.... somebody sweep her up and wanted to get married.... she's been with us since we were kids... that was like 15 years ago... *sniff* gonna miss her a lot... i helped her with her stuff a while ago.... u know... packing and everything... i felt sad... but not really that sad to see her go... i felt like she's just going away for a vacation and she would still show up on our doorstep after a couple of weeks... hindi ku na naisip na she's gone for good.... pero naisip ku na siya now... *sniff* so many fond memories... yet we all took them for granted.... thinking that tomorrow they'll just be there and the same good ol stuff happens everyday.... we just didn't appreciate the value of their everyday presence... that's really hard huh?

anyways, going senti now...

but okies lang... that would definitely perk up my imagination

and get my fingers going with pen and paper...

and write a story once more...

God, I really miss writing....

Now that I'm here, I have a lot of spare time for it...

... and especially for PS2!! hahahhahaha getting addicted to wild arms4 na.... next stop ku nyan... FF10... hihihihi can't wait....

cge until here!~

ps. technology's gonna suck up my whole life! ^.~

2006-04-19T22:15:00.000+08:00

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Katherine!

The pharoahs of ancient Egypt wore garments made with thin threads of beaten Katherine.
Wearing headphones for an hour will increase the amount of Katherine in your ear 700 times.
Katherine can grow up to three feet in a 24 hour period!
In a pinch, the skin from a shark can be used as Katherine.
The National Heart Foundation recommends eating Katherine at least three times a week!
Katherine has little need for water and is capable of going for months without drinking at all.
Native Americans never actually ate Katherine; killing such a timid prey was thought to indicate laziness!
Apples are covered with a thin layer of Katherine.
Katherineolatry is the mindless worship of Katherine!
Katherineocracy is government by Katherine.

FREEEEEEEEEEEE

2006-04-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

WOW!!!! I CAN'T IMAGINE THAT I'M FREE!!!! HAHAHA SORI NLNG KUNG ALL CAPS AKO NGAYON. WLA LANG TRIP LANG HIHIHIHIHI NYWAYS, CAN'T WAIT TO GO OUT WITH BARKADAINC BKAS! CAN'T WAIT TO GO IN AN OUTING WITH THEM TOO!!! WOW, SUPER EXCITED NA ME!! HEHEHEHE ANYWAYS, STILL HAVE TO MAKE AYOS MY TRANSFER PAPERS TO UP DILIMAN. OKS LANG SA AKIN KUNG MATATANGGAP AKO DUN, OK LANG DIN KUNG MAIIWAN AKO DUN SA UPEPP. KHIT ANO, PWD NA SA AKIN SINCE I GOT SOME FRIENDS THERE NARIN AND I HAD ESTABLISHED FAMILIARITY AND LIKENESS TOWARDS THE SKUL NARIN. SO HAYUN. ANYWAYS, SHIGE NA. WALA NA RIN AKO IBANG MAKWENTO EH. HEHEHEHE UNTIL THEN!~

Nakakaloka

2006-04-02T12:31:00.000+08:00

by:Pencilheads

Ilang lipovitan pa ang iinumin
O giliw ko...
Ilang ulit pa ba ang uulitin
O giliw ko...
Tatlong oras na kitang tinititigan
Di mo man lang napapansin na bangag na ako

Ilang itlog pa ba ang kakainin
O giliw ko...
Ilang yellow pad pa ang iipunin
O giliw ko...
Gagawin ku ang lahat pati ang footnotes mo
Wag mu lang ipagkait ang tinatapos ko
Sagutin mo lang ako aking papel walang humpay nakakaloka

Aasahang tatapusin ka
Sa tanghali't sa gabi't madaling umaga
Wag ka sanang magtanong at magduda
Dahil ang puso ko'y puno ng pangamba
Na tayo'y mahuhuli sa pagpasa at tuluyang... maloloka...

>>>Grabe na to. Nababaliw na ako sa term paper ko. Hehehe forgive me for being insane. Sandali na lang to. Within 24 hours and am going to pass it na.. Hehehe<<<

Barely alive

2006-03-11T13:48:00.000+08:00

Finally! tpos na ang reporting namin sa history!!! grabe ilang gabi rin ako ndi nakatulog nang dahil dun. maganda naman ang feedback from our audience. nasira lang presentation namin nung namatay un cd player and we have to seach the track where we left off which was kinda frustrating considering na maganda un simula namin. but anyways, tpos na siya and it's time to leave it behind and hope for the best na mataas un grade namin sa prof na un.

sorry tlaga if i wasn't able to update my blog for quite a while. besides un reporting na ginagawa at tinatapos ku within 3 weeks, all other time was spent in idleness. kagaya ngayon. tatamad tamad nanaman ako... hay... But i still have to do a lot of school work. Malapit na matapos ang second sem, which means i have to study study study for the remaining exams and for the finals. And am barely alive right now. Hay.... ang hirap tlaga ng calculus namin... ndi ku na siya masyadong gets.... pero kakayanin ku to. can't wait for summer vacation! the more i have spare time for myself, the more i came to realize how much i miss barkadainc and all my friends in SJ. grabe talaga kagabi... ang dami kong iniisip... tungkol nga dun sa loneliness ku. biglaan siya in fairness ha. pero oki na ako now. kinda relieved na.

bumili pala ako ng 2 rabbits as my pets last week and love them tlga! hihii knina natakot tlga ako nung muntik na kainin ng aso ng pinsan ku rabbit ku. grabe tlga un. hahaha^^ anyways, la na me syadong masulat and makwento. til next time!~

Alipin

2006-03-09T20:36:00.000+08:00

For all the peepz who are in love right now, this song is for you...

Alipin - Shamrock

Di ko man maamin
Ikaw ay mahalaga sa akin
Di ko man maisip
Sa pagtulog ikaw ang panaginip
Malabo man ang aking pag-iisip
Sana'y pakinggan mo ang sigaw nitong damdamin

[chorus:]
Ako'y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
Aaminin ko minsan ako"y manhid
Sana at iyong naririnig
Sayong yakap ako"y nasasabik...

Ayoko sa iba
Sayo ako ay hindi magsasawa
Ano man ang iyong sabihin
Umasa ka ito ay diringgin
Madalas man na parang aso"t pusa
Giliw sa piling mo ako ay masaya

[chorus:]
Ako'y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
Aaminin ko minsan ako"y manhid
Sana at iyong nariring
Sayong yakap ako"y nasasabik...

[coda:]
Pilit mang abutin ang mga tala
Basta't sa akin wag kang mawawala
Ako'y alipin mo kahit hindi batid
Aaminin ko minsan ako"y manhid
Sana ay iyong naririnig
Sayong yakap ako"y nasasabik
Pagkat ikaw lang ang nais makatabi
Malamig man o mainit ang gabi
Nais ko sana iparating na ikaw lamang
Ang siyang aking iibigin

Ok change of plans

2006-02-02T21:34:00.000+08:00

Hay nako buhay naman tlaga oo... Hindi na ako matuloy sa MYMP concert. Sabi ni mami kung gusto ko manuod ng concert, sumama nalang daw ako kila Jeff sa Xavier. May concert na magaganap rin dun that very same night with lots of bands pa and may makukuhang free ticket si Jeff sa classmate niya so hayun. I don't think I'd go kasi ewan ko ba. Basta may comfortable ako kung sa school ko. Kung sana eh lalaki ako at Xavierian noh... Kso hindi... Anyways, I think I'll just go with mam and dad saturday night to go catch a good movie habang nag-aantay to fetch Jeff after the concert. I still need to do lots of school stuff like our History report. Tapos may exam pa pala ako sa SOCSCI so I have to prepare for it pa. Hay nako talaga....

And then, baka mamove rin yun surprise party namin para ki Kat kasi may field trip ako sa NatSci that whole day and since hindi na siya overnight trip, super pinipilit ako ni mami na pumunta para makuha yun bonus points. Sayang rin daw yun. Hay nako... Ang nasa isip ko na talaga eh hindi na ako sasama eh. Mas gusto ko pang matuloy yun party ni Kat kaysa pumunta ng Hundred Islands... Mahihilo lang din naman ako sa biyahe eh... Hay nako ... Bahala na....

And then I really can't wait to meet up with Johanna and Rhyan this sunday! Mag-rereunion party kami sa Golden Fortune (heck! kakasawa na yun place ha! hahaha) and basta. Can't wait to hang out with them coz miss ko na sila. Hay....

Hayun lang so far yun updates ko...

BTW, kanina ko lang nalaman na BAKLA pala yun ABOGADONG prof ko sa SOCSCI... hahahahaha^___^ yun NATSCI prof ko mismo nagsbi sa amin... hahahahaha^___^ still can't believe it kasi super matinong tignan yun si attorney eh... hahaha^___^

Jittery at the moment

2006-02-01T17:36:00.000+08:00

I don't know what I should feel right now. I just got through the deadliest calculus exam ever and I'm feeling kinda depressed about it since it's so hard and I think I'm gonna fail. Dinaan ko na lang depression ko sa paglamon ng McChicken burger, twister fries, iced tea and hot fudge sundae. So much for my veggie and fruit diet. Kakainis kasi eh. Hay nako....

On the other hand, I get to see the MYMP concert sa SJ this coming saturday night! Wai!!! As in super last minute decision na. Si Katrine kasi is selling her tickets since hindi na siya pupunta so hayun. Binili ko na. Bessie Tea is going to be with me and her bro. Yay so excited! Grabe. Siguro come saturday night iisipin ni mami na palayas na kami ni Jeff, my bro, since both of us are going to see different concerts that night. (Si Jeff sa variety show nila sa xavier fair. Bands include Hale, Orange and Lemons, Spongecola, Itchyworms, etc... Ako naman sa SJ lng to see MYMP) hayun

Then this coming sunday, we're going to have a reunion party for Johanna and Rhyan since they are here right now, coming home for a break. (Jo and Rhyan are currently studying at Kainan Univ at Taiwan) Sana talaga makakapunta mga pips. Hindi ku pa kasi nahehead count mga pipz eh. hayun. Wish ko lang maging successful siya.

Then despite the busy weekend, I still have to make room for my SOCSCI second exam come Monday.... Grabe super "ma-wiwingdang" (overwhelm and confuse) nanaman ako by that time. The last SOCSCI exam was horrible. But I'm relieved that I got a passing score which is 72.5%. (about 2.5) So ngayon palang, I'm crossing my fingers and trying out my luck agen...

So so far so good. Next weekend dapat may field trip kami (for Biology class) sa Hundred Islands, overnight trip siya kaso lang I've already planned with my barkada about Kathleen's surprise debut party for saturday night and since alam ko na hindi naman ako papayagan ni mami na sumama kasi overnight siya, hindi na me sasama. Oks lang din sa akin eh since ayoko magovernight.

That's it for me. Can't wait for summer to come! Hahaha excited na ako magbakasyon!!! 2 more months to go! Aja!~

Getting so excited!

2006-01-27T08:07:00.000+08:00

Waii!!! So excited to go home na talaga this weekend! Can you believe it na halos buong month ng January eh naiwan ako dito sa pampanga??? Kaya super gusto ko nang umuwi!!! Hehehe And then this weekend, chinese new year na. Waii!!!! Can't wait to celebrate it with my family and relatives again! Hehehe

But sad to say, mag-eexam na kami ng calculus next wednesday so that means I have to prepare for it in the weekends.....

BUT WHO CARES???? Hahahaha bahala na yan! For as long as I'm going home this weekend and I'm going to have fun! fun! fun! Heheheehe nahyhyper nanaman ako....

Later, am going to bake some cookies and brownies (if time permits...) for my bro Jeff since he's been answering my calculus homework for the past few weeks and he requested for my yummy cookies. Nasunog yun nauwi ku last time pero sabi niya oks lang kasi masarap parin. Wai!!! I love my bro! Hahaha^__^

Anyways, wala na ako ibang masabi so until then okies??? I'll just update after this weekend and see if I have the time.... Ciao!

Busy as a bee

2006-01-18T10:39:00.000+08:00

Hay grabe... akala ko makakaraos na ako nung monday... but noooooo...the prof gave us another set of calculus homework to be submitted tomorrow(approx 60 items to answer)...gawd... i wouldn't complain about it much tlaga in the first place pero pano ba naman kasi, ang hirap hirap sagutin ang isang problem na hindi pa dinidiscuss ng teacher kung pano gawin and ang hirap hirap intindihin yun librong to. Kaya hayun. Kakainis tlgang sagutan. Nung previous homework namin eh halos lahat pala ng mga blockmates ko eh hindi rin natapos sagutan yun 1-40 items na yun. hahaha akala ko ako lang. hay... tapos problema pa yun english research paper ko. topic na tinanggap kasi ng prof ko eh tungkol sa junk food consumption. ngayon namomoblema na ako sa paghanap ng sources para dun. wala kasing exact libro tungkol sa junk food so i ended up browsing through health books. and one thing i found out is that a person will have to eat lots of healthy food (like veggies and fruties) as much as possible these days coz none of the food we're eating are healthy anymore. grabe as in magiging health conscious na ako from now on. im not saying na i won't eat meat anymore, but i could once in a while, maybe four times a week na lang? di gaya dati na halos araw araw eh puros meat yun ulam. so yun. and another factor that urges me to be health conscious was watching the movie "supersize me" targeting fastfood chains and especially mcdonald's. as in grabe tlaga yun documentary na yun. kaya tuwing i pass by a fastfood chain (madalas mcdo, jollibee and greenwich) and that i would have the urge to pamper myself with the juicy-licious food in there, i would stop and think about it first (dahil nga fastfood food is not healthy) di gaya dati na the hell i care with health for as long as i get to eat my cheese burger or mcchicken burger or my hot fudge sundae at mcdo.hehehe so yun.

ngayon ku lang talaga nafefeel yun load ng work sa college. (pero in fairness wala pa to sa load ng work sa SJ) kasi nung first sem naman eh patamad tamad at panuod nuod pa ako dyan ng movies and tv shows. and i do everything i want to do (that means i don't really do my homework and i don't really give all my time into studying) Hay... so much for relaxing. Etong sem na to really means business. sana makaraos din. can't wait for summer to come!!! hahahaha march 21 pa last day namin. pero from the way i see it, mabilis lang yang 2 months to go na yan. so we'll see what happens. hope il still be alive after this... hihihi

Calculus my ass....

2006-01-15T10:43:00.000+08:00

Grrr.... I'm so not in the mood today... it's all because of the frickin' calculus homework we got... It's so darn hard!! Bat pa kasi pinag-aaralan ang calculus eh??? Ano ba use nyan sa business??? Ano ba use nyan sa everyday life??? You don't use it when you're commuting. Like hell, the driver's gonna punch you on the face when you said, "Bayad po, limit as x approaches 0 square root of 1-x square over 1+x time x+6". Grrr....

Anyways, I haven't greeted everyone a happy happy new year this year. ( Although I did in my tagboard...) So HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! I do hope all you guys had fun celebrating it. Mine was a blast! Got to spend it with my family and friends. I can't elaborate on it right now since the stupid homework had been burdensome to me. So I guess, until then when I cool off. Adios!

Very Merry Christmas!

2005-12-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

Hi! I'm just dropping by to say Merry Christmas to you all! I just came home from attending simbang gabi with my family at Saint Jude Parish and guess what? Saw lots of Judenites there! Yup! Yup! Yup! Rich, Clar, Schub and Ann were all there. Didn't really expected it. The mass was okay. Si Fr. Aquino kasi ang presiding priest kaya medyo boring... pero the Christmas spirit is there! Hehehehe Well, I gotta go now! Happy Holidays!

Ang lamig ng simoy ng hangin...

2005-12-23T20:28:00.000+08:00

Grabe ever since nagstart yun bakasyon eh hindi na ako nakapagupdate. Pano ba naman kasi? sira yun phone line namin dito kaya hindi ako makapaginternet. It had been like that for four straight days na hanggang ngayon, I practically shouted for joy nung ayos na siya. Hay salamat!

Anyways, Christmas break was going okay for me. Been doing a lot of cleaning up dito sa bahay since as usual ang dumi dumi and ang gulo gulo ng bahay. I just helped put up the Christmas tree two days ago which was supposed to be put up after Christmas. Can you believe my mom actually said that? Hay nako. Kung hindi ko tinayo yun tree na yan, inabutan pa kami ng new year eh wala pang puno ang bahay na ito. Hay... And I simply can't stop admiring my tree... It's so very nice!!! As in may nahalungkat akong mga lumang Christmas decorations and grabe ang dami akong nakitang huge golden poinsettas! (tama ba yun spelling?^^) As in ang ganda tlga tignan pagmalayo. Hehehehe Kapag close up kasi eh makikita mo medyo tagpi tagpi yun gilid niya but anyways, ang ganda ganda talaga niya.

Tapos as usual, nahyhyper ako tuwing nandito ako sa bahay kaya super ingay ko dito at nanggugulo sa mga kapatid ko at kila dadi and mami. And ang weird ko talaga. Super ubod ng lambing ako ki mami ngayon. As in parang whenever I saw her, kakapit ako kaagad sa kanya. I guess kasi I can feel na malapit na matapos ang bakasyon ko... Pano ba naman yan? January 2 pasok na kami ulit kaagad! Kakainis talaga! Tapos ang dami ko pa talagang assignment na dapat gawin pero as usual, tinatamad ako to the max. Kaya maliban sa pagtulong ki mami sa tindahan (which will usually take up half of my time a day), naglalaro ako ng Sims2 (na pinag-aaddict addict ko nanaman ngayon kasi ako lang pwede maglaro nun sa amin magkakapatid hahaha^^) at nagluluto para sa pamilya (once ko lang ata nagawa to sa buong bakasyon ko ngayon). Hayun. Ubod ng boring ang bakasyon ko pero I'm half enjoying it kasi nasa piling ako ng aking pamilya. (Wow! Ang lalim!!^^) And it perks me up. Hehehehe

So far, okay naman ang mga nakuha ku for this Christmas. Wala ako nakuha sa aking wishlist. Pero k lang naman. Asa pa ako na magkakaroon ako nun. Ngunit! Hindi pa tapos ang Christmas! Dec 23 pa lamang ngayon! Kaya wish! wish! wish! Heheehehe

Can't wait to hang out with my barkada sa Dec 27!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hanggang dito nalang po! Merry Christmas to you all!

One...Two...Three...Takbo!

2005-12-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

Today was marked the Oblation run day. But first, what's an Oblation run? For peeps who don't know about it, it's the thing UP's Alpha Phi Omega Fraternity hold every year. Basically you'll just see members of the frat running around the campus butt naked with their heads covered with cloth so that they won't be recognized. And I'm not kidding about it. Here in UP Clark, konti lang kc ang APO members kaya parang small celebration lang siya. Sa UP Diliman, grabe daw kapag Oblation run na. Hundreds of male students would really run the whole campus (oh baka ndi naman. siguro in a designated area lang). But anyways, I wasn't planning on going to school tlga today. But stupid History prof announced last meeting that we're going to have a quiz today so I don't have any other choice but to go. Yun mga kasama ku sa school eh niloloko na nga ako kasi nga ayaw ko makita un "thingy" ng guys. It makes me sick eh. I kept on praying that our prof would not let the Oblation runners in the classroom so that I can avoid the event but noooo. Nakakainis tlga un prof at inannounce na next year na un quiz namin!! I wanted so badly to go home right away habang hindi pa nagsisimula un event but the other APO frat members have already blocked the entrance and there's no way I'm slipping out of it without bumping into butt-naked guys. So I stayed. And I stayed behind. Literally. I was surrounded by screaming girls who got all perked up and excited into seeing their "stuff". And I just stayed behind the line so that there's a barricade of people in front of me and that way, I won't be able to lose my innocence. ^^ Grabe. I didn't even realized that the guys had started to run already and it lasted like a full minute. They just ran fast around the corridors and into the library and went out fast too. I just got a glimpse of their butts but that's all. My friends and I were all ready to retreat to the canteen when the girls started screaming again and before we realized it, they ran for another round again. It was an encore! Hahaha! We were surprised and taken aback because we were in a much more spacious area that time and no, I turned around this time because of the space in front of me, and I would be able to see it na if I don't. Grabe tlaga. What an experience! Anyways, I still have to burn my eyebrows for my Calculus exam tomorrow... noooo.....

New Friends

2005-12-02T17:16:00.000+08:00

These are the people who I had befriend and got along well in UP and they're usually the ones I hang along with. They're really nice people from all walks of life and yeah, they're nice to me too. This photo is shot in Olongapo, Subic where we had our field trip in Soc Sci.

2005-11-24T22:22:00.000+08:00

Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical

You blog like no one else is reading...
You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose.
Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily.
But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll!

What's Your Blogging Personality?

Terror-stricken first days

2005-11-12T11:54:00.000+08:00

Gahh!!! I hate my second sem!!! It's all because of the terrifying teachers!!! Grrr... I haven't had a single prof who's not scary, freaky and the i'll-get-you-embarassed-in-front-of-the-class type! I now don't know how am I suppose to survive school. My Nat Sci prof's ok but she admits that she may get mood swings sometimes so we better watch out for it. My calculus prof is the famous prof around the campus; famous for talking like a machine gun, for his strict rules and regulations, for his hard examinations and for his power to stop all students from transferring to Diliman. Heard he likes to fail students for that reason too. And he is our course's adviser so he could easily monitor who's staying and who's going. My PE teacher (oh, our PE's not kickboxing anymore thank God! It's going to be competitive group games. We'd be in like groups and compete each other. Games include parlor games, classic games, sports, indoor and outdoor games. Who would imagine us playing parlor games??^^) talks endlessly about health education. I can't blame him though for being a physical therapist. He blabs on about taking vitamins and minerals everyday and that we should keep our bodies healthy up until we are old. Sigh. I nearly doze off with him lecturing all the way. He's not that strict and was okay for me. Last but not the least (since I haven't met my history and communications profs yet) my beloved (or be-hated?) social science prof who could very well pass the de-lara look alike and personality alike is such a pain in the ass. Being a professional lawyer, he carries with him that arrogant, know-it-all air that I can safely bet many people resent him so much for that. He had this booming commanding (or let's just say demanding) voice that had us all glued and frozen in our seats. It's like everything's by the book and every single movement done within the room, he could very well criticize. We were all nervous and the room's really quiet. You could even hear the sound of those crickets outside. Is it just me getting all nervous and scared in front of him, with me sitting right in front of him at the start of the sem? Maybe. I was so stupid to sit there in the first place. Better make sure I won't sit there anymore. And I have the whole 4-months to prove that he can never be the apple of our eyes. Okay. I'm going nonsense right now. To sum it all, my happy days are over. Only God can really see me through it all...

Which reminds me...I won't be seeing any of them for the entire week next week!!! I'm going with my uncle to this seminar on ADS held in Cebu for 5 days so I'll be gone by the time the profs would be in offensive stance. I don't even know if that's a good sign; me skipping a class in each subject for the trip to Cebu. But I guess I won't regret grabbing this once in a lifetime opportunity to be involved with Ads in the end. I just knew it...

Personality Disorder Test

2005-11-08T21:15:00.000+08:00

Disorder Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mvURL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

wow... me? a narcissist? an avoidant? a dependent? wow... partially true huh? ^^

Marching forward

2005-10-05T10:52:00.000+08:00

Hello! Well I can't stay that long here because I still have a lot of things to do today. I just like to pass by and post a short post here.

Classes are off ever since the start of the month of October but then I still have 3 exams and a paper to settle down in the next three days from now. (Philosophy, Psychology and Math( darn!)) I have been in front of the computer for 2 whole days straight and had been really dizzy doing a lot of stuff. I just hope everything would end soon.... And I'm looking forward for the sem break that I deserve! Yey! I would want to spend it with my friends and we're already planning to have a get-away from reality! I just hope it may go as planned.

And I still have to philosophized over all those questions on our finals in Philosophy to which I can't fully understand why philosophers back then and today can't simply put the subject at rest. They simply want to probe more into something that seems to be there all along. Question on being? What is there to ask when we all know that there has to be something for us to ask questions right now, am I right? Isn't that pretty obvious? Sigh... Everytime I submerge myself into this crazy subject, I get hyper... Pls bear with me...

Anyway, I have to get going now. I will post again once my battle is over.

Forward...march! Hup! two...three...four...Hup! two... three... four...Hup!

Feeling...just feeling...

2005-09-20T14:19:00.000+08:00

Well! It's been a while since I last updated my blog here. Had a pretty busy week. And now, I'm feeling kinda bored and lazy all of a sudden. I know I should start studying for my exams next week but laziness always reign and here I am again, in front of the computer. I'll just brief you with what I did last week...

I went to Jeryl's debut some two weeks ago. (wow! time sure flies so fast! it's been two weeks already???) And all I can say is that it's great! Jeryl's looking great as well and it's good to see her after 2 years. (2 years already??? Gosh, am really getting old...) We had pictorial session after the party which was the only time we got to spend with her fully since she had to undergo a lot of surprises made especially by her mom. Everybody's looking great! And I bet that night was Jeryl's most memorable night in her entire life.

Last Saturday, I went with my blockmates on an educational trip to Subic as a requirement from our course Social Science (Psychology). It was ultra fun! I've never imagined it to be so. I thought it was going to rain cats and dogs since it's been going on and on for several days already. Thank God, prayers worked and mine was answered as I prayed for a sunny day. Sunny, it was, boy, it was so hot! But it's all right all the same as summer memories came back to me as we spent most of the afternoon on the beach! (It was the beach where Mel Tiangco shoot one of her "Magpakailanman"videos.) But before that, we went to visit Jest Camp and went sightseeing on some exotic birds and animals. (It's like a smaller version of Avilon Zoo. Rating the place though, I still go for Avilon Zoo since Jest Camp is a bit run-down and old already) I loved the butterfly garden the most since the butterflies were so pretty! =) We had picnic lunch over at the beach and by 1:00pm, our prof gathered us up for some games, which whoever would gain the most points would earn bonus points in our exam. It's a battle between the other Business Management block and our block. Like in the Da Vinci Code, we are to decipher some codes and anagrams in the form of pictures and jambled letters. The block would have to be divided into two groups. One group would do the code-breaking while the other would have to create a sandcastle on the shore. I was part of the castle-building group. 3 hours later, we had built a whole illustration board size ancient-looking castle. Everybody had fun in the beach. At 4pm, everybody had to turn up their work and the rest of the time was ours. Everybody swam in the waters except a couple of peeps , including me since I just don't feel like swimming. I just wade from knees down and went to change and pack. By 6pm, we were in the bus again, tired, thirsty and hungry but happy and contented. Our prof announced to us who won the contest. For the code-breaking part, the other block got most of the answers right and they won in that category. Our huge and pretty sandcastle won the castle-building category as compared to the other block's sandcastle which was tiny and simpler. In the group dynamics category, our block won because almost everybody joined in working on the sandcastle while the other block had a couple of peeps building theirs. Our prof then announced that over-all, it was a tie between the two blocks and each gets 20 bonus points on our exam. It was a worthwhile trip I would definitely would not forget.

Later that night, some of my friends and I went to a Mooncake Festival sponsored by the Fil-Chi Youth Association here in Angeles, Pampanga. But since we went back from our trip from Subic already 2 hours late, we arrived there famished and was only able to catch bits of the food left. We also hastily went to find our corresponding tables and went to play immediately since it had already started when we arrived. Sad to say, by the time we reach our tables, the prizes thinned out and we weren't able to win that much. I got a bit upset about the whole party because I got all my friends all perk up and expectant of something engrande but it turned out to be one of the worst mooncake festivals I've ever attented to. And I was so embarassed of my friends who attended coz I'm pretty sure I've wasted their money and time, which were both so precious to them. I would never want to sell mooncake tickets to them ever again.

And on the whole, I'm feeling kinda anxious with the reamaining days of school as I am sure are going to be hectic ones. I've got a lot of work to do: papers to submit, multiple-paragraph essay to revise and submit, a summary reflection paper on the book "Da Vinci Code" (good thing I did it once in SJ!), and exams in Communications I, Natural Science I, Social Science I, Philosophy I and Math 17 all in the last week of September! (Whoa! I've just realized that that's just about all of my subjects! Shame! Oh no! What'll I do?!? And I'm telling ya, it's not the finals yet. Our finals week would be on the second week of October!OMG....) Talk about getting bored and lazy a week before gruesome week. It's a feeling... just a feeling...

Depressed

2005-09-01T20:28:00.000+08:00

Hey there. I came home late today because today is the consultation day for our grades and our profs will be giving and explaining to us our class standings, how we're keeping up with our grades. All I can say is that I've been really depressed about my grades. It's not that my grades are slipping straight down the drain. It's not as bad as some of the others I knew but its depressing all the same. The passing score is 60% and my average grades in midterm range from 65%-73%. I was hoping to get a bit higher though so I was really disappointed when my profs showed me my status. I am not satisfied with it but I don't think I could push myself to limits. My mom was really disaapointed with me too. What can I do? She was the one who wanted me to study here in UP and I'm really having a hard time. She expected me to get high scores so that I could transfer to Diliman. With my grades showing now, I doubt that I could push through with the original plan. If I could not, then, I was left with two choices: either I stay and finish my studies here in Pampanga or I could transfer to another school, maybe in Ateneo or La Salle. To tell you honestly, I had a split second moment a while ago, considering my latter alternative. I thought that if I do that, then, I will free myself of lengthy and boring lectures and grueling exams. But then I did a double take almost immediately because why the heck am I studying in this prestigious school for? I entered this school in the hopes of achieving something high and giving up means losing the battle and I don't like that to happen. I'm just feeling a bit miserable right now. Everything's making me depressed. Some of my friends in UP, in our tropa "TRIPOD", had already let our prof in math sign their dropping slip a while ago. It's just so unfair. Maybe that's making me miserable or I am just being so pathetic. I still have a lot of things to worry about: my upcoming Philosophy and Psychology exams; our barkada's performance in Clar's debut and maybe just passing the first sem in UP takes up majority of my mind right now. I'm all worked up and pressured just now after realizing that I had to take extreme measures just to pass all my subjects. By extreme means that I have to be really "nerdy" , with thick textbooks and reference materials and all, which is really not me and how am I gonna do that, I don't really know. For all I care, I am really confused but maybe I just lack sleep. I'm not giving up. The war has just begun...

2005-08-28T11:35:00.000+08:00

Your Japanese name should be

'Moriko'

which means "forest child".

You
love being in nature and see beauty in almost
everything; the trees, the flowers, the sky,
the sun. You're at your best surrounded by
nature. You love animals and they love you!

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Cogito ergo sum!

2005-08-27T14:19:00.000+08:00

Oh my gosh! Imagine me doing a "philosophical" post here at blog! Maybe I was full of philosophy this week that had urged me to write down what I think about this intimidating subject. I tell you: it's soooooo hard to understand it!!! It will really split your brains apart! And I'm not even kidding about this. Just ask my fellow blockmates in school. How the hell are you suppose to know about the things around you without using your senses? Now this is what philosophy is talking about.

Before I blab on about this really really crazy subject, I must first make an introduction of it. We are currently studying Descartes' (the guy who invented the Cartesian plane. Ring any bells?) philosophy and he condemned that senses deceive us. (Like when you see a bent stick submerged in a glass filled with water) "To see is to believe" is a big NO NO for him. He asks us how certain are we that we exist. How certain are we that there are things called the sun, the moon, the world or the universe? The title itself is in Latin and it means "I think therefore I exist". Judging by the message it conveys to us, Descartes firmly believed that we can know an object's certainty through our reason. Our minds do the reasoning. He said that we are a thinking thing and that makes our existence certain. But just imagine us, a thinking body without senses. We all know that our knowledge comes from our everyday experiences and to experience means to sense. So why does Descartes argued that it is through reason and not through senses that we gain certainty? He would bombard you with trivial questions like the following: How certain are you that you are not dreaming about reading this post of mine right now? How certain are you that you are now in front of your computer and not somewhere else? How positive are you that you could very well differentiate reality from dream? I think his ideas are all farfetched. I'll bet you on anything that he came from Mars. (Watch out for Mars' appearance at exactly 12 midnight tonight!^^)

I guess you are getting bored with all this non-sense and I am not going to tire you out. I'm not even good in thoroughly explaining all this philosophical stuff because I, myself, cannot understand Descartes' mind. I jusy want to share with you what our Philosophy professor said. Descartes' philosophy was created not to complicate our lives but rather the other way around. Its purpose is to lighten things up and to open up our minds to a world full of impossible possibilities. It would be good to think about life in a philosophical sense once in a while. You'd definitely see things flowing through the stream of life logically. I don't necessarily agree with Descartes. I'm more of an empiricist (a person who believes in his senses rather than reason) rather than a rationalist (like Descartes, who's weird and all). But I guess we live in a much more liberated world now. Thinking and believing in what you like is for free. No one's stopping you in doing so and certainly nobody can dictate what you're supposed to believe in. So, for the meantime, cogito ergo sum!

Oh and by the way, I was listening to my cd just now and I just posted the lyrics of a song which caught my attention:

"No Such Thing"

'Welcome to the real world', she said to me
Condescendingly'
Take a seat,
take your life
Plot it out in black and white
'Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding up my sleeve

They love to tell you "stay inside the lines"
But something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

So the good boys and girls takethe so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits, maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't
Find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at theTop of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you got to rise above

I am invincible as long as I'm alive

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

I just can't wait til my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for

Ooh! I bet you John Mayer's a rationalist!!!^__^

Missing you

2005-08-13T15:06:00.000+08:00

This is my best friend Tea and I during our senior year graduation. 10 years of friendship and still counting!! I miss her so much!!!