Well! It's been a while since I last updated my blog here. Had a pretty busy week. And now, I'm feeling kinda bored and lazy all of a sudden. I know I should start studying for my exams next week but laziness always reign and here I am again, in front of the computer. I'll just brief you with what I did last week...

I went to Jeryl's debut some two weeks ago. (wow! time sure flies so fast! it's been two weeks already???) And all I can say is that it's great! Jeryl's looking great as well and it's good to see her after 2 years. (2 years already??? Gosh, am really getting old...) We had pictorial session after the party which was the only time we got to spend with her fully since she had to undergo a lot of surprises made especially by her mom. Everybody's looking great! And I bet that night was Jeryl's most memorable night in her entire life.

Last Saturday, I went with my blockmates on an educational trip to Subic as a requirement from our course Social Science (Psychology). It was ultra fun! I've never imagined it to be so. I thought it was going to rain cats and dogs since it's been going on and on for several days already. Thank God, prayers worked and mine was answered as I prayed for a sunny day. Sunny, it was, boy, it was so hot! But it's all right all the same as summer memories came back to me as we spent most of the afternoon on the beach! (It was the beach where Mel Tiangco shoot one of her "Magpakailanman"videos.) But before that, we went to visit Jest Camp and went sightseeing on some exotic birds and animals. (It's like a smaller version of Avilon Zoo. Rating the place though, I still go for Avilon Zoo since Jest Camp is a bit run-down and old already) I loved the butterfly garden the most since the butterflies were so pretty! =) We had picnic lunch over at the beach and by 1:00pm, our prof gathered us up for some games, which whoever would gain the most points would earn bonus points in our exam. It's a battle between the other Business Management block and our block. Like in the Da Vinci Code, we are to decipher some codes and anagrams in the form of pictures and jambled letters. The block would have to be divided into two groups. One group would do the code-breaking while the other would have to create a sandcastle on the shore. I was part of the castle-building group. 3 hours later, we had built a whole illustration board size ancient-looking castle. Everybody had fun in the beach. At 4pm, everybody had to turn up their work and the rest of the time was ours. Everybody swam in the waters except a couple of peeps , including me since I just don't feel like swimming. I just wade from knees down and went to change and pack. By 6pm, we were in the bus again, tired, thirsty and hungry but happy and contented. Our prof announced to us who won the contest. For the code-breaking part, the other block got most of the answers right and they won in that category. Our huge and pretty sandcastle won the castle-building category as compared to the other block's sandcastle which was tiny and simpler. In the group dynamics category, our block won because almost everybody joined in working on the sandcastle while the other block had a couple of peeps building theirs. Our prof then announced that over-all, it was a tie between the two blocks and each gets 20 bonus points on our exam. It was a worthwhile trip I would definitely would not forget.

Later that night, some of my friends and I went to a Mooncake Festival sponsored by the Fil-Chi Youth Association here in Angeles, Pampanga. But since we went back from our trip from Subic already 2 hours late, we arrived there famished and was only able to catch bits of the food left. We also hastily went to find our corresponding tables and went to play immediately since it had already started when we arrived. Sad to say, by the time we reach our tables, the prizes thinned out and we weren't able to win that much. I got a bit upset about the whole party because I got all my friends all perk up and expectant of something engrande but it turned out to be one of the worst mooncake festivals I've ever attented to. And I was so embarassed of my friends who attended coz I'm pretty sure I've wasted their money and time, which were both so precious to them. I would never want to sell mooncake tickets to them ever again.

And on the whole, I'm feeling kinda anxious with the reamaining days of school as I am sure are going to be hectic ones. I've got a lot of work to do: papers to submit, multiple-paragraph essay to revise and submit, a summary reflection paper on the book "Da Vinci Code" (good thing I did it once in SJ!), and exams in Communications I, Natural Science I, Social Science I, Philosophy I and Math 17 all in the last week of September! (Whoa! I've just realized that that's just about all of my subjects! Shame! Oh no! What'll I do?!? And I'm telling ya, it's not the finals yet. Our finals week would be on the second week of October!OMG....) Talk about getting bored and lazy a week before gruesome week. It's a feeling... just a feeling...

Hey there. I came home late today because today is the consultation day for our grades and our profs will be giving and explaining to us our class standings, how we're keeping up with our grades. All I can say is that I've been really depressed about my grades. It's not that my grades are slipping straight down the drain. It's not as bad as some of the others I knew but its depressing all the same. The passing score is 60% and my average grades in midterm range from 65%-73%. I was hoping to get a bit higher though so I was really disappointed when my profs showed me my status. I am not satisfied with it but I don't think I could push myself to limits. My mom was really disaapointed with me too. What can I do? She was the one who wanted me to study here in UP and I'm really having a hard time. She expected me to get high scores so that I could transfer to Diliman. With my grades showing now, I doubt that I could push through with the original plan. If I could not, then, I was left with two choices: either I stay and finish my studies here in Pampanga or I could transfer to another school, maybe in Ateneo or La Salle. To tell you honestly, I had a split second moment a while ago, considering my latter alternative. I thought that if I do that, then, I will free myself of lengthy and boring lectures and grueling exams. But then I did a double take almost immediately because why the heck am I studying in this prestigious school for? I entered this school in the hopes of achieving something high and giving up means losing the battle and I don't like that to happen. I'm just feeling a bit miserable right now. Everything's making me depressed. Some of my friends in UP, in our tropa "TRIPOD", had already let our prof in math sign their dropping slip a while ago. It's just so unfair. Maybe that's making me miserable or I am just being so pathetic. I still have a lot of things to worry about: my upcoming Philosophy and Psychology exams; our barkada's performance in Clar's debut and maybe just passing the first sem in UP takes up majority of my mind right now. I'm all worked up and pressured just now after realizing that I had to take extreme measures just to pass all my subjects. By extreme means that I have to be really "nerdy" , with thick textbooks and reference materials and all, which is really not me and how am I gonna do that, I don't really know. For all I care, I am really confused but maybe I just lack sleep. I'm not giving up. The war has just begun...